How to calm down...

[The Nur]

Pothole said:

They say there's someone for everyone, but there's LOADS. Don't get too hung up on this one girl. Look around you. There are more of them than us.

Good luck.

You're right

There have been some developments with her lately and whilst I was madly in love with her those feelings have subsided. It took 6 months but I have come to the realisation that it just wasn't meant to happen. I'm normally such a logical person but she warped my mind, not something that she was doing specifically, just her in general had some fked up effect on me.

Either way, that is over now and I can smile again. I still have my other demons to face but day by day I am coming to terms with being me. Having read even more into the autism/aspergers thing I have made an appointment with my doctor to talk and see what he recommends. Fortunately my doctor is a family friend with my nan having worked in the surgery for 15 years so I know that he will actually listen properly, not just fob me off to someone else, which is nice. That is when I was going to update next, after the appointment, but with the thread being bumped I thought I might as well fill you guys in now.

Things are looking up though

And I do want to say thanks to all those who have contributed to this thread, it has meant a lot.

There shall be a round on me if ever I meet any of you