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I love my life but I still have 'the urge' to throw myself off a high height should the opportunity present itself...
I know what the end result will be but I still fear 'the urge' to 'see what it would feel like' will overcome the rational.
It's weird, I've done para jumps, free climbed some stuff that had I fallen I'd be dead etc.. I have no fear of heights but I have a fear of 'the urge' I guess.
I have a friend who lives in a 60th floor apartment - I hate going onto the balcony for a smoke when I'm there. I live in a 4th floor apartment and I have no urge at all as I know that it would simply hurt. Madness.
I get the same feeling sometimes in a meeting - I feel no malice towards the person, I may even like them, but sometimes I feel like leaning over the table in a high powered meeting and punching the client as hard as I can - just to see what would happen. I know it would kick off spectacularly, especially if it was a woman, but I'm still very, very curious.
Scariest one was at the same 60th floor apartment balcony (it's a huge balcony - probably a good 3 metres deep) and close friends of ours had just given birth to the lovely Baby Boo. She was a couple of weeks old - everyone was holding her etc... and I couldn't take her - I love kids, but I couldn't take her. Those that know, know what I'm thinking.
I know what the end result will be but I still fear 'the urge' to 'see what it would feel like' will overcome the rational.
It's weird, I've done para jumps, free climbed some stuff that had I fallen I'd be dead etc.. I have no fear of heights but I have a fear of 'the urge' I guess.
I have a friend who lives in a 60th floor apartment - I hate going onto the balcony for a smoke when I'm there. I live in a 4th floor apartment and I have no urge at all as I know that it would simply hurt. Madness.
I get the same feeling sometimes in a meeting - I feel no malice towards the person, I may even like them, but sometimes I feel like leaning over the table in a high powered meeting and punching the client as hard as I can - just to see what would happen. I know it would kick off spectacularly, especially if it was a woman, but I'm still very, very curious.
Scariest one was at the same 60th floor apartment balcony (it's a huge balcony - probably a good 3 metres deep) and close friends of ours had just given birth to the lovely Baby Boo. She was a couple of weeks old - everyone was holding her etc... and I couldn't take her - I love kids, but I couldn't take her. Those that know, know what I'm thinking.
I really recommend speaking to your doctor or someone about this and get them to arrange a meeting so you can talk about it with someone.
I think we've all had those thoughts but if its getting to the stage of being an urge or not trusting yourself then its time toask for help - nothing to be ashamed of.
I think we've all had those thoughts but if its getting to the stage of being an urge or not trusting yourself then its time toask for help - nothing to be ashamed of.
Like the urge to yank the steering wheel down the motorway... Was an article on Jalopnik about it not so long ago
http://jalopnik.com/have-you-ever-been-haunted-by-...
http://jalopnik.com/have-you-ever-been-haunted-by-...
Asterix said:
I love my life but I still have 'the urge' to throw myself off a high height should the opportunity present itself...
I know what the end result will be but I still fear 'the urge' to 'see what it would feel like' will overcome the rational.
It's weird, I've done para jumps, free climbed some stuff that had I fallen I'd be dead etc.. I have no fear of heights but I have a fear of 'the urge' I guess.
I have a friend who lives in a 60th floor apartment - I hate going onto the balcony for a smoke when I'm there. I live in a 4th floor apartment and I have no urge at all as I know that it would simply hurt. Madness.
I get the same feeling sometimes in a meeting - I feel no malice towards the person, I may even like them, but sometimes I feel like leaning over the table in a high powered meeting and punching the client as hard as I can - just to see what would happen. I know it would kick off spectacularly, especially if it was a woman, but I'm still very, very curious.
Scariest one was at the same 60th floor apartment balcony (it's a huge balcony - probably a good 3 metres deep) and close friends of ours had just given birth to the lovely Baby Boo. She was a couple of weeks old - everyone was holding her etc... and I couldn't take her - I love kids, but I couldn't take her. Those that know, know what I'm thinking.
I know what the end result will be but I still fear 'the urge' to 'see what it would feel like' will overcome the rational.
It's weird, I've done para jumps, free climbed some stuff that had I fallen I'd be dead etc.. I have no fear of heights but I have a fear of 'the urge' I guess.
I have a friend who lives in a 60th floor apartment - I hate going onto the balcony for a smoke when I'm there. I live in a 4th floor apartment and I have no urge at all as I know that it would simply hurt. Madness.
I get the same feeling sometimes in a meeting - I feel no malice towards the person, I may even like them, but sometimes I feel like leaning over the table in a high powered meeting and punching the client as hard as I can - just to see what would happen. I know it would kick off spectacularly, especially if it was a woman, but I'm still very, very curious.
Scariest one was at the same 60th floor apartment balcony (it's a huge balcony - probably a good 3 metres deep) and close friends of ours had just given birth to the lovely Baby Boo. She was a couple of weeks old - everyone was holding her etc... and I couldn't take her - I love kids, but I couldn't take her. Those that know, know what I'm thinking.
Reks said:
Like the urge to yank the steering wheel down the motorway... Was an article on Jalopnik about it not so long ago
http://jalopnik.com/have-you-ever-been-haunted-by-...
Not like as described by the OP, but as per this article - definitely! 'Hyper aware that you could' is an accurate paraphrase!http://jalopnik.com/have-you-ever-been-haunted-by-...
Reks said:
Like the urge to yank the steering wheel down the motorway... Was an article on Jalopnik about it not so long ago
http://jalopnik.com/have-you-ever-been-haunted-by-...
Or idly wondering what it would be like to swerve across the road into the path of a huge articulated lorry! http://jalopnik.com/have-you-ever-been-haunted-by-...
Sometimes it's terrifying to think of what the effect of a tiny action could be.
We all feel that way sometimes, I'm sure - you've just got to try to stop paying attention to those thoughts. It's the combined fear/exhilaration of imagining the consequences which is making you focus on them - if you stop taking mental precautions against them/focus on other things, they'll go away.
You should have held that baby - you wouldn't have thrown it, and having not done so you'd feel more relaxed in that sort of situation.
ETA: Based on some people's reactions, either it's not something that everyone experiences, or it's not something everyone will admit to.
We all feel that way sometimes, I'm sure - you've just got to try to stop paying attention to those thoughts. It's the combined fear/exhilaration of imagining the consequences which is making you focus on them - if you stop taking mental precautions against them/focus on other things, they'll go away.
You should have held that baby - you wouldn't have thrown it, and having not done so you'd feel more relaxed in that sort of situation.
ETA: Based on some people's reactions, either it's not something that everyone experiences, or it's not something everyone will admit to.
Asterix said:
Those that know, know what I'm thinking.
Nothing as serious as the balcony example, but definitely, say at a funeral or wedding, something quiet or serious, I always wonder what would happen if I bellowed the most extreme expletives.The hitting people thing is another thing I get too but I hasten to add I've never done either.
Interesting the level of "yours" operates at though.
Butter Face said:
You want to throw a baby off a 60th floor balcony?
I suggest you seek professional help ASAP, you need it.
No no, I think you misunderstand - it's nothing crazy like that.I suggest you seek professional help ASAP, you need it.
He just wants to jump off a 60th floor balcony holding the baby.
So that's OK then!?
WTF???
Edited by SpydieNut on Friday 21st June 22:12
To those who have clearly misinterpreted the OP, he's not saying he was considering doing it. He was irrationally fearing it.
I run the risk of being labelled crazy as well here, but have you never suddenly become aware that you could destroy or kill something incredibly valuable, without significant effort?
I run the risk of being labelled crazy as well here, but have you never suddenly become aware that you could destroy or kill something incredibly valuable, without significant effort?
Papa Hotel said:
I think those of you acting outraged and surprised are kidding yourselves. You know what he's talking about and it's in us all.
Meoricin said:
To those who have clearly misinterpreted the OP, he's not saying he was considering doing it. He was irrationally fearing it.
I run the risk of being labelled crazy as well here, but have you never suddenly become aware that you could destroy or kill something incredibly valuable, without significant effort?
Agree with both.I run the risk of being labelled crazy as well here, but have you never suddenly become aware that you could destroy or kill something incredibly valuable, without significant effort?
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