You're 31, with £11,000, and failed miserably in life...

[Leicesterdave]

hidetheelephants said:

Bit daft lying without considering how the lie may play out; can you get away with saying you've been doing something relatively unverifiable, like dogwalking?

I've already said what I did- proofreader.....

[Leicesterdave]

Ved said:

Be cool, mate. Keep us up to date.

Edited by Ved on Monday 1st December 23:18

What a brilliant encouraging reply! Really appreciate this mate- thanks for this.

The main interview is happening today- I'm desperately trying to think about things in a far more positive light. I kid you not- since this thread I have tried much harder and the other half has noticed.
It'll take time but I guess I am lucky in the grand scheme of things- I do have a roof over my head, food and a fantastic girlfriend. Sure, I feel compared to many that things are a bit st but only I can make that change.
Let's hope I can continue and be positive. I look at other people on the streets and see the state of some of them and just keep thinking that I can't end up like that.

[Leicesterdave]

Just this very second found out I've got the job! Can't quite believe it- subject to backgrounds checks though so not in the bag just yet. I'm happy yet terrified. It really is putting myself outside of my comfort zone. Bang in the middle of Manchester City Centre...

[Leicesterdave]

Thank you all, very much, for your words of encouragement. I didn't expect this thread to be so popular at all- and it has been a real eye opener!
As I said I really am dead chuffed that at long last, I somehow feel 'normal'. I am no longer going to have endless days of not knowing what to do with myself and feeling utterly hopeless. That side of things feels fantastic.

I do however know that there will be challenges ahead. For a start, 8 weeks of classroom based training. To be chucked in with all these 'strangers' will feel odd and I just hope I will appear normal. You've got to bear in mind that I won't be used to such a huge number of people around me so that in itself will feel very alien. But the fact that my mrs said she was proud of me and genuinely looked so happy makes it all worthwhile. I just know that I cannot fail- she is now counting on me.

[Leicesterdave]

andy-xr said:

That's an excuse.

No, this is getting a bit silly. It's not an excuse. It's a fact. It doesn't mean I'm going to be avoiding the situation- I mean I've got myself a F/T job for gods sake! I will inevitably feel awkward and weird, most people would even without an anxiety/depression issue.