Depression

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DJRC

23,563 posts

236 months

Wednesday 24th September 2014
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This isn't so bad as previously. Walking along and screaming at the sky "I'm not dead yet" in the middle if Birmingham was a bit more serious!


Digger

14,677 posts

191 months

Wednesday 24th September 2014
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DJRC said:
This isn't so bad as previously. Walking along and screaming at the sky "I'm not dead yet" in the middle if Birmingham was a bit more serious!
Not forgetting your Ashes 'this is war' rants. wink

Ruskie

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3,989 posts

200 months

Wednesday 24th September 2014
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Well it looks like I am going to be single very soon. Things come to a head with the blame being placed firmly at my feet. House valued and going on market next week. Remains to be seen if it makes me worse. Gym is helping, as is cutting the crap out of my life.

DJRC

23,563 posts

236 months

Wednesday 24th September 2014
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Digger said:
Not forgetting your Ashes 'this is war' rants. wink
Bi polar? Who? Me?! Never smile

Petrolhead95

7,043 posts

154 months

Thursday 25th September 2014
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Ruskie said:
Well it looks like I am going to be single very soon. Things come to a head with the blame being placed firmly at my feet. House valued and going on market next week. Remains to be seen if it makes me worse. Gym is helping, as is cutting the crap out of my life.
Sorry to hear that frown

Ruskie

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3,989 posts

200 months

Friday 26th September 2014
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Be interested in others experiences of meds.

Been on them for 10 weeks approx. I feel completely and utterly apathetic to everything and everyone. No joy, no sadness just apathy. I understand the tablets are there to smooth out the mood swings and the highs and lows but now I have no highs!! Normally I am hornier than a teenager but that has eased off as well which again is a side effect.

Digger

14,677 posts

191 months

Friday 26th September 2014
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Yep pretty much what happened to me the last time I took fluoxetine (Prozac). Most beneficial aspect was it stopped the endless spiral of negative thinking, but yes does leave you emotionally numb!

Prof Prolapse

16,160 posts

190 months

Friday 26th September 2014
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What are you taking?


Cupramax

10,480 posts

252 months

Friday 26th September 2014
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I'm on my 5th week of Prozac now and to be honest the first 4 weeks where shear hell with side effects, really bad panic attacks which ive never suffered with before, very muzzy head, total loss of sex drive, but this week its cleared and I feel pretty good infact so good I've been back at work for the first time in near;y 2 years, I have however had to completely leave the drink alone (not that I'm a big drinker either) but even the slightest tipple makes me feel bad, I mean REALLY bad. My sleep is 100% better which has been a major problem for a long time, I'm no longer anywhere near as ratty all the time as I was. So, my advice is stick at it, they do work.


Rickyy

6,618 posts

219 months

Saturday 27th September 2014
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Ruskie said:
Be interested in others experiences of meds.

Been on them for 10 weeks approx. I feel completely and utterly apathetic to everything and everyone. No joy, no sadness just apathy. I understand the tablets are there to smooth out the mood swings and the highs and lows but now I have no highs!! Normally I am hornier than a teenager but that has eased off as well which again is a side effect.
That was my experience of Citalopram after three weeks, with nausea thrown into the mix. The lack of sex drive was strange though, I could actually drive through town and pay attention to the road!

I've been very stressed with work lately. I'm in a vicious circle, where I've become stressed, so I'm brushing the admin side of things under the carpet, which is delaying me getting paid, which in turn is causing me more stress!

I became so utterly fed up, that I actually applied for a job with British Gas! I've actually passed the initial stages of the application, but there are no vacancies in my area! Now I'm feeling more positive about my business again and don't know what to do for the best!

Going to the gym tomorrow to try and give me a boost, supposed to be going out tomorrow night , but I have "beer fear" fear!

Ruskie

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3,989 posts

200 months

Saturday 27th September 2014
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Prof Prolapse said:
What are you taking?
Fluoxetine.

Petrolhead95

7,043 posts

154 months

Monday 29th September 2014
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Since last posting I've had a good few weeks, only had a couple of down days. I was/am desperate to avoid medical help and try to go at it alone which has so far worked with a bit of will power. I've managed to cut all the negative crap out of my life and have kept myself occupied which has helped massively.

I know "Cool story, bro" etc, I just feel really proud of myself.

andy-xr

13,204 posts

204 months

Monday 29th September 2014
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Petrolhead95 said:
Since last posting I've had a good few weeks, only had a couple of down days. I was/am desperate to avoid medical help and try to go at it alone which has so far worked with a bit of will power. I've managed to cut all the negative crap out of my life and have kept myself occupied which has helped massively.

I know "Cool story, bro" etc, I just feel really proud of myself.
The thing is, this is what 'being fixed' actually is. It's a life change, or a change of direction. There's no silver bullet, it's all just a gradual process and if that's working for you, great - keep going

Ditch the Drains, Hug the Radiators n'that

Spiffing

1,855 posts

210 months

Monday 29th September 2014
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Have finally stopped ignoring the symptoms and booked myself a Dr's appointment for later today. What normally the first move if he does diagnose depression?

Prof Prolapse

16,160 posts

190 months

Monday 29th September 2014
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Spiffing said:
Have finally stopped ignoring the symptoms and booked myself a Dr's appointment for later today. What normally the first move if he does diagnose depression?
Anti-depressants.

Depression can be diagnosed by a GP and doesn't require referral.

Ruskie

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3,989 posts

200 months

Monday 29th September 2014
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Petrolhead95 said:
Since last posting I've had a good few weeks, only had a couple of down days. I was/am desperate to avoid medical help and try to go at it alone which has so far worked with a bit of will power. I've managed to cut all the negative crap out of my life and have kept myself occupied which has helped massively.

I know "Cool story, bro" etc, I just feel really proud of myself.
Good to hear some positivity. I tried to do what you have done for many years but it becomes exhausting eventually. I found wearing a 'mask' around others became harder and harder before I reached a point where I could no longer face doing it.

andy-xr

13,204 posts

204 months

Monday 29th September 2014
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Spiffing said:
Have finally stopped ignoring the symptoms and booked myself a Dr's appointment for later today. What normally the first move if he does diagnose depression?
It's a two way street, he/she can say things, diagnose, prescribe and all that. But it's normally with your agreement, they wont force anything on you, they'll just give you options and it's up to you to pick what feels right for you.

That can change, and you can go back and try something else. So you might get a referral. You might get a prescription. You might agree to just do more exercise and read a self help book. That might not work out as well as you hoped, so you try something else. You might not tell them the whole truth and they cant help you as much. It's down to you to spill the beans, it's down to them to give you some options and agree with you the best treatment


Edited by andy-xr on Monday 29th September 12:14

crazy about cars

4,454 posts

169 months

Monday 29th September 2014
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Good to read all the updates; good or bad sometimes it helps to share...

Things seem from to be getting worse... most days I just want to shut myself out from the world. I rarely feel happiness anymore, it's either ok or depressed. I worry too much about and also tend to be react very sensitively to any negative comments, no matter how trivial! It's frustrating because I don't want to be this way but can't help it.

Really apprehensive about going back on ADs as I've not had positive outcomes on the many years and many different types of ADs I was on.

Sometimes I do really wish I have a (real life) mate to share thoughts. Don't have any other human contact outside of my wife and kids these days.

Digger

14,677 posts

191 months

Monday 29th September 2014
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Prof Prolapse said:
Spiffing said:
Have finally stopped ignoring the symptoms and booked myself a Dr's appointment for later today. What normally the first move if he does diagnose depression?
Anti-depressants.

Depression can be diagnosed by a GP and doesn't require referral.
You might be lucky and your health practice may have access to CBT practitioners, allowing you to talk things through with a non-judgemental individual.

It's not for everyone though.

r1tey

68 posts

225 months

Monday 29th September 2014
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I'd like to add to this I work as a support worker in mental health and have been signed off for a few weeks now due to anxiety/depression. I ended up feeling lower than I ever have this weekend and doing something I really never wanted to do which was attending A&E they gave me diazepam for a couple of days and told me to visit my GP today who gave me mirtazapine.
Obviously there are circumstances behind all this mainly relationship issues which need addressing but the diazepam helped a lot last night and having the mirtazapine there is helping although I am going to try and do it without them.
I suppose my main point is I never thought I could feel as low as I did (suicidal) and because of my job I believed my visit to A&E would be useless but I had no other choice and it turned out to be quite beneficial as they spoke to me alone and then me and my partner.
I've also tried CBT and counselling, the CBT didn't work for me but the counselling (if you find the right counsellor) can help, also the Samaritans have helped.
Mental Health in my opinion is very poorly managed by the NHS and needs huge improvements.