Depression

[r1tey]

Virtually everything I have read on the net about mirtazapine has been negative so its good to read something even slightly positive

[r1tey]

Petrolhead95 said:

Don't really have anyone to talk to, that's an issue on its own. Definitely arranging a doctors appointment next week.

whereabouts in the UK are you?

[richtea78]

r1tey said:

Virtually everything I have read on the net about mirtazapine has been negative so its good to read something even slightly positive

That's the same with everything though. You only get to hear all the negatives

[bucksmanuk]

drivin_me_nuts said:

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I'm nearing fifty now. I've written about this a few years ago on PH, but about twenty years I went through a real crisis that one bizarre day after work took me to the top of Beachy head and very close to a singular drop. At the time it made perfect sense to end my life but what stopped me was the most random of things. I remember looking across the fields at the top of the cliff and seeing a man throwing a stick to a black lab. There was something in that moment, in that dogs movement that shifted something within. I will be for ever grateful to that man and his dog and even through the worst of my loss triggered bereavement and depression, my mind would still shift to that running dog.

I see it as hope - of a release, of pleasure. Of course, us humans need more than a stick to make us happy, yet in that dog's movements I saw something that made me think that what I experienced on that cliff top and what I experienced when my wife died and my world fell apart was a temporary thing. Even though it was utter hell, even though it took me to the depths of feelings of abandonment and loss, deep within I knew it was a temporary state.

...

This isn’t meant as joke or being flippant in anyway. I’ve had my dark days too…
If that image of a black lab running around, in their carefree manner, can lift your mood, maybe a black lab in your life could be part of the answer. Or maybe you could just borrow someone else’s?
All the best.

[DJRC]

I can fully and utterly attest that having a Labrador in your life makes things better Choccy brown one in my household and a hyperactive Dalmatian. Lack of love is not an option

[tonyvid]

andy-xr said:

r1tey said:

Has anyone taken Mirtazapine at all and if so how did you find it? thanks

Two words. Weight gain

Biscuits, sweets, chocolate, anything becomes mega tasty. And you'll sleep very well. Sometimes a bit too well. Hangovers will be heavier than normal and if you overdo it you'll have blank spots from the night before. Things will look and feel a lot better. Also, you'll still be able to pitch a tent if that's a concern.

I was on them for around 6 months, came off due to bloating and feeling much better about life in general.

I'll agree with that, they have certainly helped me. I was super-hungry for the first few weeks but it has leveled off a bit now, all the weight I lost through stress went back on in about a month! The lower doses(15mg?) will have a marked sleepy effect which is why you take it at night - 9-10hrs, no problem! Getting up at 6:00 is a bit difficult though... As I understand it, higher doses work differently on the body so this isn't such a problem. Feeling dopey after food and late afternoon can make driving a bit iffy so be aware of these effects and good luck.

[r1tey]

Thanks I'm gonna try 7.5mg to start with.

[Ruskie]

Well had a shocking two weeks. Missus asked me to move out as she couldn't live with me anymore in the current situation. I have for noticeably worse and at one point just stayed in bed the whole day which is unacceptable when you have a family. My carefully constructed mask has slipped further and further to the point where kids were asking constantly what the problem was. Had a massive breakdown Monday triggered by my house been valued to go on market.

Been to see GP today, medication doubled and referred on for CBT counselling.

I have had better weeks

[grumbledoak]

Sounds like you are going through Hell, Ruskie. Keep going. Concentrate on one step at a time.

[crazy about cars]

Ruskie said:

Well had a shocking two weeks. Missus asked me to move out as she couldn't live with me anymore in the current situation. I have for noticeably worse and at one point just stayed in bed the whole day which is unacceptable when you have a family. My carefully constructed mask has slipped further and further to the point where kids were asking constantly what the problem was. Had a massive breakdown Monday triggered by my house been valued to go on market.

Been to see GP today, medication doubled and referred on for CBT counselling.

I have had better weeks

Do you have another family member or close friend you can confide in? Keeping it all in is not a good thing...

[johnxjsc1985]

Ruskie said:

Well had a shocking two weeks. Missus asked me to move out as she couldn't live with me anymore in the current situation. I have for noticeably worse and at one point just stayed in bed the whole day which is unacceptable when you have a family. My carefully constructed mask has slipped further and further to the point where kids were asking constantly what the problem was. Had a massive breakdown Monday triggered by my house been valued to go on market.

Been to see GP today, medication doubled and referred on for CBT counselling.

I have had better weeks

Jeez mate that is a bad week and lets face it it would take a complete twonk not to be upset by all of that going on so don't be so hard on yourself life at times is a complete st fest.

[jonah35]

johnxjsc1985 said:

Ruskie said:

Well had a shocking two weeks. Missus asked me to move out as she couldn't live with me anymore in the current situation. I have for noticeably worse and at one point just stayed in bed the whole day which is unacceptable when you have a family. My carefully constructed mask has slipped further and further to the point where kids were asking constantly what the problem was. Had a massive breakdown Monday triggered by my house been valued to go on market.

Been to see GP today, medication doubled and referred on for CBT counselling.

I have had better weeks

Jeez mate that is a bad week and lets face it it would take a complete twonk not to be upset by all of that going on so don't be so hard on yourself life at times is a complete st fest.

Keep your chin up, remember it's not all black and white, there are shades of grey. Having your house down valued isn't great but it's not a massive issue in life. Think of others who have bigger problems.

Splitting with a partner isn't great but it's not a 10/10 catastrophe, Armageddon thing, just remember they're not great issues but it's not the end of the world.

[johnxjsc1985]

in the end it will be you who decides that enough is enough of this st and get your life back. Only you can make that change and I know how hard it can be to get to that point. Just keep plugging away you can get there.

[Ruskie]

Cheers for the kind words. Feeling a bit better today.

[mouse1991]

Hope you've had a decent week Ruskie.

[johnxjsc1985]

I always find this picture makes me smile.

[Petrolhead95]

Well, since my last post I was having a decent few weeks. I started getting my sleep back, I could eat proper meals again and I was generally just feeling a lot happier.

Unfortunately the last two weeks have been crap. The biggest negative being falling out with best friend. She said she's completely done with me, doesn't want to see me again and hates me which instantly put me into a massive free fall of st that I really could do without. Money has been very tight this month, work has been fking awful and I've once again lost to ability to sleep properly and I can't eat a proper meal.

My problems are tiny compared with some on here, but I just hate feeling like crap. Nobody around me understands and/or cares. It's horrible to say it, but I've never felt so alone in my life.

Yay me.

[Mrs Muttleysnoop]

That is a problem with depression, people do not know how to deal with people with depression. Neither do people realise how emotionally fragile one feels.

[Ruskie]

Petrolhead95 said:

Well, since my last post I was having a decent few weeks. I started getting my sleep back, I could eat proper meals again and I was generally just feeling a lot happier.

Unfortunately the last two weeks have been crap. The biggest negative being falling out with best friend. She said she's completely done with me, doesn't want to see me again and hates me which instantly put me into a massive free fall of st that I really could do without. Money has been very tight this month, work has been fking awful and I've once again lost to ability to sleep properly and I can't eat a proper meal.

My problems are tiny compared with some on here, but I just hate feeling like crap. Nobody around me understands and/or cares. It's horrible to say it, but I've never felt so alone in my life.

Yay me.

Chin up mate I understand some off how your feeling. Let's have a st life top trumps game

Still in Mums spare bedroom, work is manic and unforgiving at the moment (occupational hazard I suppose) Zero sign of been back home which I can deal with but I'm in Limbo. I hate Christmas at the best of times but it seems to been rammed down my throat extra early this year. Skint so working loads of extra shifts resulting in been run down, no time for gym, no time for socialising. So it goes on!

[johnxjsc1985]

Petrolhead95 said:

Well, since my last post I was having a decent few weeks. I started getting my sleep back, I could eat proper meals again and I was generally just feeling a lot happier.

Unfortunately the last two weeks have been crap. The biggest negative being falling out with best friend. She said she's completely done with me, doesn't want to see me again and hates me which instantly put me into a massive free fall of st that I really could do without. Money has been very tight this month, work has been fking awful and I've once again lost to ability to sleep properly and I can't eat a proper meal.

My problems are tiny compared with some on here, but I just hate feeling like crap. Nobody around me understands and/or cares. It's horrible to say it, but I've never felt so alone in my life.

Yay me.

Tiny or not mate your problems are yours and big enough to stop you enjoying your life.
I hope you manage to get through this period as you will sooner or later and just try not to be so hard on yourself .