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Good luck OP,
I have been through this and am coming out the other side
I smoked and grew skunk for about 12 years until last year...now I'm about 6 months 'clean' and barely ever think about it anymore.
Next to go is the tobacco, today is my first day off that..so far so good.
The worst thing was not being able to sleep properly, and when i did get to sleep i would have the weirdest nightmares that would mean i didn't want to go to back to sleep...Thankfully that only lasted a few weeks
I have been through this and am coming out the other side
I smoked and grew skunk for about 12 years until last year...now I'm about 6 months 'clean' and barely ever think about it anymore.
Next to go is the tobacco, today is my first day off that..so far so good.
The worst thing was not being able to sleep properly, and when i did get to sleep i would have the weirdest nightmares that would mean i didn't want to go to back to sleep...Thankfully that only lasted a few weeks
The_Nur...
Lots of talk on here with regards to taking up hobbies.
Having read your various posts and threads, I would have thought one suggestion is glaringly obvious; take up writing.
You appear to write with fluency and carry a great sense of narrative with your words. Whether the fuel for this creativity is in fact cannabis I don't know, but I'm assuming it's inherently there already. It's a gift, and without question an avenue you should explore.
It doesn't pay incredibly well but a couple of freelance contributions here and there will cheer up your wages at the end of the month, not forgetting of course it's also something you'd enjoy.
Lots of talk on here with regards to taking up hobbies.
Having read your various posts and threads, I would have thought one suggestion is glaringly obvious; take up writing.
You appear to write with fluency and carry a great sense of narrative with your words. Whether the fuel for this creativity is in fact cannabis I don't know, but I'm assuming it's inherently there already. It's a gift, and without question an avenue you should explore.
It doesn't pay incredibly well but a couple of freelance contributions here and there will cheer up your wages at the end of the month, not forgetting of course it's also something you'd enjoy.
I was going to update this in a few days, but seeing as it has been revived I may as well reply
If I stop smoking even for a day my nights are not restful at all. The weirdest thing is the content of the dreams, the same places recurring over and over, the same things happening but in different ways. Very unusual. Bloody interesting though. It is like a place I have never been to that I visit every night.
But I shall, it is something I have been thinking about since starting this thread that I am keen to have a go at. Why the hell not eh?
My favourite author is Hunter S. Thompson, mainly because I feel some sort of similarity between myself and him in his approach to life, knowing that he was a bit of an outsider and writing things very much as they appeared to him, with a little bit of a fantastic slant too, of course. Plus of course there is the drug abuse and the soft spot for fast cars and firearms. Basically if it is loud, fast, f
ks you up or a mixture of all three it is right by me and HST 
Shuvi McTupya said:
Good luck OP,
I have been through this and am coming out the other side
I smoked and grew skunk for about 12 years until last year...now I'm about 6 months 'clean' and barely ever think about it anymore.
Next to go is the tobacco, today is my first day off that..so far so good.
The worst thing was not being able to sleep properly, and when i did get to sleep i would have the weirdest nightmares that would mean i didn't want to go to back to sleep...Thankfully that only lasted a few weeks
Cheers Shuvi, the nightmares don't take long to set in do they? I have been through this and am coming out the other side
I smoked and grew skunk for about 12 years until last year...now I'm about 6 months 'clean' and barely ever think about it anymore.
Next to go is the tobacco, today is my first day off that..so far so good.
The worst thing was not being able to sleep properly, and when i did get to sleep i would have the weirdest nightmares that would mean i didn't want to go to back to sleep...Thankfully that only lasted a few weeks
If I stop smoking even for a day my nights are not restful at all. The weirdest thing is the content of the dreams, the same places recurring over and over, the same things happening but in different ways. Very unusual. Bloody interesting though. It is like a place I have never been to that I visit every night.
ajb85 said:
The_Nur...
Lots of talk on here with regards to taking up hobbies.
Having read your various posts and threads, I would have thought one suggestion is glaringly obvious; take up writing.
You appear to write with fluency and carry a great sense of narrative with your words. Whether the fuel for this creativity is in fact cannabis I don't know, but I'm assuming it's inherently there already. It's a gift, and without question an avenue you should explore.
It doesn't pay incredibly well but a couple of freelance contributions here and there will cheer up your wages at the end of the month, not forgetting of course it's also something you'd enjoy.
Hey ajb85. Thanks for the input and it is extremely nice of you to say such things. I do really enjoy writing but have never really had the confidence to put pen to paper, so to speak. Actually, I don't suppose it is the lack of confidence, more a defeatist attitude that makes me question the point of such an exercise as it will almost certainly never see the light of day. Not that could, should or would be published or anything Lots of talk on here with regards to taking up hobbies.
Having read your various posts and threads, I would have thought one suggestion is glaringly obvious; take up writing.
You appear to write with fluency and carry a great sense of narrative with your words. Whether the fuel for this creativity is in fact cannabis I don't know, but I'm assuming it's inherently there already. It's a gift, and without question an avenue you should explore.
It doesn't pay incredibly well but a couple of freelance contributions here and there will cheer up your wages at the end of the month, not forgetting of course it's also something you'd enjoy.
But I shall, it is something I have been thinking about since starting this thread that I am keen to have a go at. Why the hell not eh?My favourite author is Hunter S. Thompson, mainly because I feel some sort of similarity between myself and him in his approach to life, knowing that he was a bit of an outsider and writing things very much as they appeared to him, with a little bit of a fantastic slant too, of course. Plus of course there is the drug abuse and the soft spot for fast cars and firearms. Basically if it is loud, fast, f
ks you up or a mixture of all three it is right by me and HST Pothole said:
They say there's someone for everyone, but there's LOADS. Don't get too hung up on this one girl. Look around you. There are more of them than us.
Good luck.
You're right Good luck.
There have been some developments with her lately and whilst I was madly in love with her those feelings have subsided. It took 6 months but I have come to the realisation that it just wasn't meant to happen. I'm normally such a logical person but she warped my mind, not something that she was doing specifically, just her in general had some f
ked up effect on me.Either way, that is over now and I can smile again. I still have my other demons to face but day by day I am coming to terms with being me. Having read even more into the autism/aspergers thing I have made an appointment with my doctor to talk and see what he recommends. Fortunately my doctor is a family friend with my nan having worked in the surgery for 15 years so I know that he will actually listen properly, not just fob me off to someone else, which is nice. That is when I was going to update next, after the appointment, but with the thread being bumped I thought I might as well fill you guys in now.
Things are looking up though
And I do want to say thanks to all those who have contributed to this thread, it has meant a lot.
There shall be a round on me if ever I meet any of you
The Nur said:
Pothole said:
They say there's someone for everyone, but there's LOADS. Don't get too hung up on this one girl. Look around you. There are more of them than us.
Good luck.
You're right Good luck.
There have been some developments with her lately and whilst I was madly in love with her those feelings have subsided. It took 6 months but I have come to the realisation that it just wasn't meant to happen. I'm normally such a logical person but she warped my mind, not something that she was doing specifically, just her in general had some f
ked up effect on me.Either way, that is over now and I can smile again. I still have my other demons to face but day by day I am coming to terms with being me. Having read even more into the autism/aspergers thing I have made an appointment with my doctor to talk and see what he recommends. Fortunately my doctor is a family friend with my nan having worked in the surgery for 15 years so I know that he will actually listen properly, not just fob me off to someone else, which is nice. That is when I was going to update next, after the appointment, but with the thread being bumped I thought I might as well fill you guys in now.
Things are looking up though
And I do want to say thanks to all those who have contributed to this thread, it has meant a lot.
There shall be a round on me if ever I meet any of you
The Nur said:
Cheers Shuvi, the nightmares don't take long to set in do they?
If I stop smoking even for a day my nights are not restful at all. The weirdest thing is the content of the dreams, the same places recurring over and over, the same things happening but in different ways. Very unusual. Bloody interesting though. It is like a place I have never been to that I visit every night.
I usually found that i was either stranded there or struggling to try and get somewhere else from there but no matter what i tried, i would not be able to get away.
quite often there would have been some kind of disaster/war/riot going on so everybody was in survival mode or something.
The most re-occuring theme seemed to involve having to avoid a huge crowd, so i would find small groups of folk who were also hiding (could also be hiding from robots/aliens, that sort of thing) quite often in the bombed out remains of a neighborhood..
Or there would be nothing like that going on and i was just an outsider in a new place, and just could not express myself properly or fit in properly so would just find myself wandering around trying to figure it all out, or how to get the hell away from there and to a place where i did fit in.
All very weird, but waking up in the middle of them was quite a relief
I guess they all hint as having various types of social anxiety or something!
Edited by Shuvi McTupya on Wednesday 18th July 13:30
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