Effing cancer is an effing effer, frankly

[wiliferus]

I have a new found sympathy with those suffering with cancer (not that I wasn't sympathetic before, but have found a new depth to my feelings!).

Recently found a lump on one of my nuts. Had a ultrasound which is currently being assessed. I don't think it's cancer, but there's always that chance, and so the wait for results is pretty st.
Your mind can play nasty games on you and give you very irrational thoughts.

Hats off to you all, both those living with and fighting cancer, and those of you who are supporting them.

[oddball1973]

Its a fker all right, my wife has just had #5 of her 6 Chemo's for breast cancer (surgery in September)
Got diagnosed 6 months into the pregnancy of our second child, thankfully the bay seems fine considering she's experienced 3 doses of Chemo but the diagnosis for the missus looks good, no secondaries and she's in remarkably good health and spirits all things considering

Lost both my mum and dad to cancer so it can go fk itself up the fking arse, it's not having a third bite at my family

[350zStee]

My twin brother has just beaten Hodgkins Lymphoma after 6 months of chemo. Apparently there is an influx of young people in the area that have been diagnosed with it in recent months, we are 25 years old.

I'm going to get very drunk.

[Chlamydia]

I just popped into the Health Matters sub-forum to ask about dentists but then noticed this thread.
I'd just like to echo the "fk you, cancer" sentiment. A close friend of mine who moved to the States was taken by this bd condition last month. I'd last seen him at a New Year celebration and he was the picture of health, but within a few months he went from that to no longer being with us. This was a guy who walked away from two IED explosions in one day without a scratch and seemed so indestructible that we even considered shooting him ourselves to see if the rounds just bounced off. fking cancer

[Graham-P]

Today, is 11 weeks exactly (to the minute) since my wife lost her battle.
Today, is her birthday.
Today, is our wedding anniversary.
Today, I will cry another river, adding to the ocean that's already there.
Today, my sense of loss, the pain deep inside and the loneliness is greater than ever.
Today, someone will say 'give it time it will get easier'.
Today, I have no wish to see tomorrow.

I apologise if I have upset anyone, but I guess we all react in different ways, this is mine. Nobody can prepare you for any of this st.
I will go and light a candle for Lana today and I will pray for everyone going through what we went through.


Graham

[Lost soul]

ecain63 said:

Good news on my cancer journey today. It's come to an end, fingers crossed forever! Had my first post-op ct scan yesterday and everything was clear. Woohoo!

Just 2 chemo sessions to go and that should be me done! Having a beer at work as i type.

Eddie

[drivin_me_nuts]

Graham-P said:

Today, is 11 weeks exactly (to the minute) since my wife lost her battle.
Today, is her birthday.
Today, is our wedding anniversary.
Today, I will cry another river, adding to the ocean that's already there.
Today, my sense of loss, the pain deep inside and the loneliness is greater than ever.
Today, someone will say 'give it time it will get easier'.
Today, I have no wish to see tomorrow.

I apologise if I have upset anyone, but I guess we all react in different ways, this is mine. Nobody can prepare you for any of this st.
I will go and light a candle for Lana today and I will pray for everyone going through what we went through.


Graham

As Will I. As others have lit candles for my lass, I will light a candle for yours. These are the hardest of days Graham. We light lots of candles and we shed oceans of tears, but somewhere in all of it, we know we do it because we loved and we were loved. And in that, we were truly blessed.

[drivin_me_nuts]

Graham-P said:

Today, is 11 weeks exactly (to the minute) since my wife lost her battle.
Today, is her birthday.
Today, is our wedding anniversary.
Today, I will cry another river, adding to the ocean that's already there.
Today, my sense of loss, the pain deep inside and the loneliness is greater than ever.
Today, someone will say 'give it time it will get easier'.
Today, I have no wish to see tomorrow.

I apologise if I have upset anyone, but I guess we all react in different ways, this is mine. Nobody can prepare you for any of this st.
I will go and light a candle for Lana today and I will pray for everyone going through what we went through.


Graham

As Will I. As others have lit candles for my lass, I will light a candle for yours. These are the hardest of days Graham. We light lots of candles and we shed oceans of tears, but somewhere in all of it, we know we do it because we loved and we were loved. And in that, we were truly blessed.

[ali_kat]

drivin_me_nuts said:

Graham-P said:

Today, is 11 weeks exactly (to the minute) since my wife lost her battle.
Today, is her birthday.
Today, is our wedding anniversary.
Today, I will cry another river, adding to the ocean that's already there.
Today, my sense of loss, the pain deep inside and the loneliness is greater than ever.
Today, someone will say 'give it time it will get easier'.
Today, I have no wish to see tomorrow.

I apologise if I have upset anyone, but I guess we all react in different ways, this is mine. Nobody can prepare you for any of this st.
I will go and light a candle for Lana today and I will pray for everyone going through what we went through.


Graham

As Will I. As others have lit candles for my lass, I will light a candle for yours. These are the hardest of days Graham. We light lots of candles and we shed oceans of tears, but somewhere in all of it, we know we do it because we loved and we were loved. And in that, we were truly blessed.

I will too.

I'm told the first 'events' are the worst; I've been tempted to ask those that tell me 'give it time it will get easier' how they know.

I understand your wish today, but hope that we do see you tomorrow

[ruggedscotty]

This topic although about death is full of life and lifes struggle to live. God bless.

Life is fragile and were only along here once and we have to make the best of what we have and appreciate those around us. I lost my mother in 2006. Never a day goes past without me thinking about her. Gone but not forgotten. Cancer spread through her and then she passed away in a hospice. Fought as best as she could. I got married and my mother was away before I got to my first anniversary. She never got to see my daughter but my daughter carries her name.

You dont get over it and the pain never ever leaves you just learn how to deal with it.

F##k you Cancer, you took my mother and I despise you for that.

I really do wish there was a like on here as some of the posts were excellent and from the heart

[Neith]

My brother's lymphoma has came back and it's now terminal. He's only 24. I don't even know what to think at the minute He's already had several sessions of chemotherapy, radiotherapy, a stem cell transplant and months of post-transplant rehabilitation. Now it's came back and the stem cells I donated aren't fighting it. I can't help but feel somewhat guilty

fk you cancer, he's too young for this

(Sorry for bumping this).

Good luck/my condolences for anyone else going through this hell.

[mikees]

ali_kat said:

drivin_me_nuts said:

Graham-P said:

Today, is 11 weeks exactly (to the minute) since my wife lost her battle.
Today, is her birthday.
Today, is our wedding anniversary.
Today, I will cry another river, adding to the ocean that's already there.
Today, my sense of loss, the pain deep inside and the loneliness is greater than ever.
Today, someone will say 'give it time it will get easier'.
Today, I have no wish to see tomorrow.

I apologise if I have upset anyone, but I guess we all react in different ways, this is mine. Nobody can prepare you for any of this st.
I will go and light a candle for Lana today and I will pray for everyone going through what we went through.


Graham

As Will I. As others have lit candles for my lass, I will light a candle for yours. These are the hardest of days Graham. We light lots of candles and we shed oceans of tears, but somewhere in all of it, we know we do it because we loved and we were loved. And in that, we were truly blessed.

I will too.

I'm told the first 'events' are the worst; I've been tempted to ask those that tell me 'give it time it will get easier' how they know.

I understand your wish today, but hope that we do see you tomorrow

54 days and 5 hours in 13 minutes for me. I'll light some candles later for them both.

Have a beer and try to smile and think about how it was.


Mike

[muckymotor]

My Grandad has had prostate cancer for over twenty five years now. At the weekend we noticed that he was slurring his words slightly and the grip in his right hand wasn't very strong. Fearing a stroke his doctor sent him to hospital where they did various tests which eventually ruled a stroke out. Further tests revealed what we were fearing, that the cancer had spread and formed a brain tumour. Unfortunately it's too large to operate on plus at 96 I doubt he'd be able to take it. The hospital are treating him with the aim of making his life comfortable. I'm absolutely gutted

[James_N]

I thought I'd have a wonder into this thread. Haven't read through it all yet but my mum was diagnosed with cancer on Wednesday We thought it might just be gallstones and need the gall bladder out but it turns to be cancer around that area.

Just got to wait for the biopsy now. What a

[IroningMan]

My uncle was diagnosed with bowel cancer in the autumn as a result of one of those 'poo in the post' tests. He'd seen his GP with a fairly standard set of symptoms and been told not to worry about a year earlier...

Initially the tumour was in an accessible location but a little too large to tackle immediately; he had chemo through the winter, radio in the spring and, happily, these seem to have worked to bring it down to size; operation two weeks ago took 6 hours but all looks good and the scans have shown no sign that it's metastisized (is that the right term?).

Fingers crossed.

[ali_kat]

Neith said:

My brother's lymphoma has came back and it's now terminal. He's only 24. I don't even know what to think at the minute He's already had several sessions of chemotherapy, radiotherapy, a stem cell transplant and months of post-transplant rehabilitation. Now it's came back and the stem cells I donated aren't fighting it. I can't help but feel somewhat guilty

fk you cancer, he's too young for this

(Sorry for bumping this).

Good luck/my condolences for anyone else going through this hell.

Don't feel guilty, at all!! You have done more to help your brother than anyone could.

muckymotor said:

My Grandad has had prostate cancer for over twenty five years now. At the weekend we noticed that he was slurring his words slightly and the grip in his right hand wasn't very strong. Fearing a stroke his doctor sent him to hospital where they did various tests which eventually ruled a stroke out. Further tests revealed what we were fearing, that the cancer had spread and formed a brain tumour. Unfortunately it's too large to operate on plus at 96 I doubt he'd be able to take it. The hospital are treating him with the aim of making his life comfortable. I'm absolutely gutted

Replying to you both is the lazy way I know, but I'll be saying the same thing & my post count really doesn't need duplicates

My heart is with you both, and it just shows that this awful cancer has no age discrimination

I'm expecting that both your Brother & your Grandad will be in the care of your local Hospice soon; be it MacMillan, Marie Curie or one of the smaller charities own; even if they stay in their local hospital cancer wards the staff there are all devoted to the care that they give, they treat them like their own so your loved ones will be in the very best hands they could possibly have.

I'm not going to lie to you and say this is an easy journey, because it is one of the hardest you will face, but those looking after them will do everything in their power to alleviate your stress and pain, as well as that of your Brother and Grandfather.

[speedysoprano]

I'm so sorry to read all these terribly sad stories here. Sending best wishes to all of you in such sad times.

My dad is undergoing radiotherapy at the moment for prostate cancer - it's very minor, apparently, they caught it super early and they're expecting him to make a full and rapid recovery.

But it's scary as hell, I'm not going to lie. Especially because I'm in London and my parents are in Australia. I wish I could be there with them at the moment. I see them on Skype at least once a week and they're doing just fine. Dad's still working in the mornings and is in good spirits. He looks just like normal and says he feels pretty normal, too.

Still. It's horrible, horrible, horrible. I lost both my grandfathers to cancer in 1999 and 2000. One was fine, then admitted to the hospital with chest pains on Oct 4th. He died of aggressive, untreatable lung cancer on Oct 28th. The other had just turned 70 and was in fantastic health. He lived in another state so we only saw him about twice a year. We'd been up for a visit to coincide with my 16th and his 70th birthdays (one day apart) and had an amazing time. Six months later he was dead of liver cancer, and I never saw him again.

So yes. F*ck Cancer. Every which way.

[BlackVanDyke]

A shocked and decades-too-soon goodbye said today to a friend from my former, musical life whose patience and dedication made a huge difference not just to me but to hundreds (thousands?) of student and amateur baroque musicians. The world is a worse place without Selene in it. F*ck you, cancer. Bigtime.

All good thoughts to everyone else on here.

F*ck you, cancer. Bigtime.

[Neith]

Neith said:

My brother's lymphoma has came back and it's now terminal. He's only 24. I don't even know what to think at the minute He's already had several sessions of chemotherapy, radiotherapy, a stem cell transplant and months of post-transplant rehabilitation. Now it's came back and the stem cells I donated aren't fighting it. I can't help but feel somewhat guilty

fk you cancer, he's too young for this

(Sorry for bumping this).

Good luck/my condolences for anyone else going through this hell.

Just to update, he unfortunately passed away earlier today peacefully in hospital.

Rest in peace bro

[celticstevie]

I fear my dad is loosing his life now to prostate cancer. He was diagnosed in February 2013 with stage 4 prostate, bone spread and other hot spots as they called it - 18 months into the journey, he managed 7 cycles of chemo and had an infection in June. In hospital for a week and then out for 2 weeks and a further chemo session. He ended up in hospital for 3 weeks again with another infection which he managed to get clear.

He was due to get home on Monday but had not been eating very well due to pain relief and there has been a significant weight drop. I went up to see him with my mum on Monday to see the curtains shut and him crying to tell me he cannot move his legs - now confirmed as a spinal chord compression. He was in terrible pain on Monday and we got the priest for last rites.

My brother arrives back from Dubai today to see him and it is just so fking unfair, cruel, indiscriminate, horrible of a disease that attacks people and eats them away. I've watched a guy who was big and strong diminish in front of me. I'm really struggling to hold it together and hope he goes quick, he has bore the disease bravely and with real courage but nada mas enough, he cannot take any more of it. The horrible thing is mentally he knows exactly what is happening

Please pray for him