Emotional eating and being unlucky in life?
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Originally i planned to stay in my teaching job and slowly build up the private tutoring side. I advertised on specific websites, put up some flyers in shops in certain neighbourhoods that i targetted, and spread by word of mouth my tutoring skills. I only got 5 parents interested. Of those only 2 were willing to pay me for private tutoring and both stopped after only 1 month. Their children had 150€ sneakers, multiplie Apple gadgets, even a new Mini at aged 18, but weren't prepared to pay 25-30€/ hour for weekly lessons.
One parent still owes me 100€!
In Paris i got no interest because i wouldn't drop my hourly rate to 10€!!! Too many foreign students offering low hourly rates.
Previous post: i've basically been drifting all my life professionally since I've never really set myself any career objectives.
I went into teaching because i love history, love communicating with people and wanted to share my passion for the subject. I never set out to be become head of history or English, although having seen numerous heads of subject in action over the years, i seriously wonder how they made it to that position!
I've been writing on and off for the past few weeks and finding it hard going. My inspiration is lacking, probably because i've been feeling depressed.
I lack success in my life and believe that if it hasn't happened now that i'm aged 49, then it probably never will. How many people become successful and contented after the age of 50 by following their passion?
I'm really anxious about stepping out of my confort zone. Scared about the future.
Is this normal?
One parent still owes me 100€!
In Paris i got no interest because i wouldn't drop my hourly rate to 10€!!! Too many foreign students offering low hourly rates.
Previous post: i've basically been drifting all my life professionally since I've never really set myself any career objectives.
I went into teaching because i love history, love communicating with people and wanted to share my passion for the subject. I never set out to be become head of history or English, although having seen numerous heads of subject in action over the years, i seriously wonder how they made it to that position!
I've been writing on and off for the past few weeks and finding it hard going. My inspiration is lacking, probably because i've been feeling depressed.
I lack success in my life and believe that if it hasn't happened now that i'm aged 49, then it probably never will. How many people become successful and contented after the age of 50 by following their passion?
I'm really anxious about stepping out of my confort zone. Scared about the future.
Is this normal?
Robert Altman didn't make his first film until 46. 49 is no barrier except to elite sport/physical endeavours.
If you have a strong teaching CV apply at some decent fee paying schools in the U.K. where they pay well and treat you well.
One thing at a time. Get a job where you feel valued. Self confidence will then follow from that. But you need to make the decisions and chase the target. A well paid teaching job at a good school won't fall in your lap.
If you have a strong teaching CV apply at some decent fee paying schools in the U.K. where they pay well and treat you well.
One thing at a time. Get a job where you feel valued. Self confidence will then follow from that. But you need to make the decisions and chase the target. A well paid teaching job at a good school won't fall in your lap.
You have a negative outlook on life Rob. You really need to start thinking positively. Nothing will happen otherwise.
This can be a challenge and you may need professional help to refine the way you process everything.
In amidst all your posts in this thread, there are hints of positivity but there are more negatives than positives. You do have the ability to think positively. But the life change you want are big and you are scared.
You won't find answers here. Only you can do this. For months now, you have been stressing over your situation and yet, you are still in the same situation from the time you created this thread. Use this time off work to find an alternative job. You enjoy teaching, so stick with this.
This can be a challenge and you may need professional help to refine the way you process everything.
In amidst all your posts in this thread, there are hints of positivity but there are more negatives than positives. You do have the ability to think positively. But the life change you want are big and you are scared.
You won't find answers here. Only you can do this. For months now, you have been stressing over your situation and yet, you are still in the same situation from the time you created this thread. Use this time off work to find an alternative job. You enjoy teaching, so stick with this.
You talk about Mindfulness. Something that I am working on at the moment with elements of success.
Look for an App called Headspace. Some good little freebies on there to help you with the above and helping to relax and be self-aware. Ten minutes a day to focus on yourself and how you actually feel inside.
Look for an App called Headspace. Some good little freebies on there to help you with the above and helping to relax and be self-aware. Ten minutes a day to focus on yourself and how you actually feel inside.
Just finished a pile of job application letters to every private school in Hampshire/Dorset/Sussex. Will start there then work northwards.
Contacted return to teaching to enquire about refresher courses etc.
On official govt education website my teaching status is listed as QTS ( Qualified Teaching Status)., so i guess i don't have to do a TAS course for returning teachers.
I've also contacted several family lawyers concerning daughter. She's 13 now so can legally choose which parent to live with under French law, but the family affairs judge has the final say.
Also sent email to French tax authorities enquiring about tax situation if i return to UK.
Stage 2. Apply to private schools in Normandy/Calais area.
Contacted return to teaching to enquire about refresher courses etc.
On official govt education website my teaching status is listed as QTS ( Qualified Teaching Status)., so i guess i don't have to do a TAS course for returning teachers.
I've also contacted several family lawyers concerning daughter. She's 13 now so can legally choose which parent to live with under French law, but the family affairs judge has the final say.
Also sent email to French tax authorities enquiring about tax situation if i return to UK.
Stage 2. Apply to private schools in Normandy/Calais area.
rosbif77 said:
Just finished a pile of job application letters to every private school in Hampshire/Dorset/Sussex. Will start there then work northwards.
Contacted return to teaching to enquire about refresher courses etc.
On official govt education website my teaching status is listed as QTS ( Qualified Teaching Status)., so i guess i don't have to do a TAS course for returning teachers.
I've also contacted several family lawyers concerning daughter. She's 13 now so can legally choose which parent to live with under French law, but the family affairs judge has the final say.
Also sent email to French tax authorities enquiring about tax situation if i return to UK.
Stage 2. Apply to private schools in Normandy/Calais area.
Good man, now we are getting somewhere.Contacted return to teaching to enquire about refresher courses etc.
On official govt education website my teaching status is listed as QTS ( Qualified Teaching Status)., so i guess i don't have to do a TAS course for returning teachers.
I've also contacted several family lawyers concerning daughter. She's 13 now so can legally choose which parent to live with under French law, but the family affairs judge has the final say.
Also sent email to French tax authorities enquiring about tax situation if i return to UK.
Stage 2. Apply to private schools in Normandy/Calais area.
rosbif77 said:
Just finished a pile of job application letters to every private school in Hampshire/Dorset/Sussex. Will start there then work northwards.
Contacted return to teaching to enquire about refresher courses etc.
On official govt education website my teaching status is listed as QTS ( Qualified Teaching Status)., so i guess i don't have to do a TAS course for returning teachers.
I've also contacted several family lawyers concerning daughter. She's 13 now so can legally choose which parent to live with under French law, but the family affairs judge has the final say.
Also sent email to French tax authorities enquiring about tax situation if i return to UK.
Stage 2. Apply to private schools in Normandy/Calais area.
Great forward step Contacted return to teaching to enquire about refresher courses etc.
On official govt education website my teaching status is listed as QTS ( Qualified Teaching Status)., so i guess i don't have to do a TAS course for returning teachers.
I've also contacted several family lawyers concerning daughter. She's 13 now so can legally choose which parent to live with under French law, but the family affairs judge has the final say.
Also sent email to French tax authorities enquiring about tax situation if i return to UK.
Stage 2. Apply to private schools in Normandy/Calais area.
I need some advice.
I sat down with my kids last night and over a bowl of popcorn chatted about the future. I explained my situation to them. They were very understanding. My son doesn't mind if i return to the UK, he wants to do a master's degree in International Relations or military strategy anyway in Paris, whereas my daughter wants to stay in the same school until she's 18. She doesn't want me to go back to England, although she stated she would prefer to live just with me but still see her mum. Confusing!!!
She'll pass her Brevet ( French secondary educational certificate) in July 2018. She'll be 15 then and at that point would move up to the lycée (6th form). She absolutely doesn't want to leave her current school.
Several options:
1. I return to the UK. My daughter would then have to go to another school. The ex would get full custody under French law.
2. I wait till Summer 2018 when my daughter has finished secondary school. She might then decide to move with me to England.
3. I find another teaching job somewhere else in France. Daughter moves with me. I ask for full custody.
4. I stay in same school. In my free time i work like hell and try to finish My novel manuscipt, i learn to type properly, i improve my IT skills and create a writer's blog/website, and i eventually get published!! I hit the jackpot!!!!
5. Something else i haven't thought of yet!!!!
I sat down with my kids last night and over a bowl of popcorn chatted about the future. I explained my situation to them. They were very understanding. My son doesn't mind if i return to the UK, he wants to do a master's degree in International Relations or military strategy anyway in Paris, whereas my daughter wants to stay in the same school until she's 18. She doesn't want me to go back to England, although she stated she would prefer to live just with me but still see her mum. Confusing!!!
She'll pass her Brevet ( French secondary educational certificate) in July 2018. She'll be 15 then and at that point would move up to the lycée (6th form). She absolutely doesn't want to leave her current school.
Several options:
1. I return to the UK. My daughter would then have to go to another school. The ex would get full custody under French law.
2. I wait till Summer 2018 when my daughter has finished secondary school. She might then decide to move with me to England.
3. I find another teaching job somewhere else in France. Daughter moves with me. I ask for full custody.
4. I stay in same school. In my free time i work like hell and try to finish My novel manuscipt, i learn to type properly, i improve my IT skills and create a writer's blog/website, and i eventually get published!! I hit the jackpot!!!!
5. Something else i haven't thought of yet!!!!
rosbif77 said:
I need some advice.
I sat down with my kids last night and over a bowl of popcorn chatted about the future. I explained my situation to them. They were very understanding. My son doesn't mind if i return to the UK, he wants to do a master's degree in International Relations or military strategy anyway in Paris, whereas my daughter wants to stay in the same school until she's 18. She doesn't want me to go back to England, although she stated she would prefer to live just with me but still see her mum. Confusing!!!
She'll pass her Brevet ( French secondary educational certificate) in July 2018. She'll be 15 then and at that point would move up to the lycée (6th form). She absolutely doesn't want to leave her current school.
Several options:
1. I return to the UK. My daughter would then have to go to another school. The ex would get full custody under French law.
2. I wait till Summer 2018 when my daughter has finished secondary school. She might then decide to move with me to England.
3. I find another teaching job somewhere else in France. Daughter moves with me. I ask for full custody.
4. I stay in same school. In my free time i work like hell and try to finish My novel manuscipt, i learn to type properly, i improve my IT skills and create a writer's blog/website, and i eventually get published!! I hit the jackpot!!!!
5. Something else i haven't thought of yet!!!!
Looks a like you are managing things a little which is good. Not sure what to say, however if it was me, which it is not. I would do the following:I sat down with my kids last night and over a bowl of popcorn chatted about the future. I explained my situation to them. They were very understanding. My son doesn't mind if i return to the UK, he wants to do a master's degree in International Relations or military strategy anyway in Paris, whereas my daughter wants to stay in the same school until she's 18. She doesn't want me to go back to England, although she stated she would prefer to live just with me but still see her mum. Confusing!!!
She'll pass her Brevet ( French secondary educational certificate) in July 2018. She'll be 15 then and at that point would move up to the lycée (6th form). She absolutely doesn't want to leave her current school.
Several options:
1. I return to the UK. My daughter would then have to go to another school. The ex would get full custody under French law.
2. I wait till Summer 2018 when my daughter has finished secondary school. She might then decide to move with me to England.
3. I find another teaching job somewhere else in France. Daughter moves with me. I ask for full custody.
4. I stay in same school. In my free time i work like hell and try to finish My novel manuscipt, i learn to type properly, i improve my IT skills and create a writer's blog/website, and i eventually get published!! I hit the jackpot!!!!
5. Something else i haven't thought of yet!!!!
4) Stay in same school and support my children. Your dad, past history is all behind you now and you have to concentrate on going forward. Clearly your daughter and son want you around so why not stay with the people who want you instead of returning to the UK and facing your old man again? Keep things positive.
...and then....
Improve your life, improve your outlook and stick two fingers up at anyone who says you cant have a good life. If it was me do what i want, when i want.
I hope this helps in someway, reading with intrigue.
It isn't an either/or decision, as some outcomes depend on you getting another job in UK or France.
Why not keep applying to the best places you think you can get a job - be it France or UK. Then shape your thinking accordingly. No point 'deciding' to get a job in a UK school if you cannot get one in a school you want to work at.
Keep as many options in play as long as possible. It may take until 2018 to get the ideal role, so that might work out with daughter's change of school.
Good you had a grown up discussion with them Kids are resilient - and would much prefer a happy father with self esteem that they see on weekends than a glum dad every day.
Why not keep applying to the best places you think you can get a job - be it France or UK. Then shape your thinking accordingly. No point 'deciding' to get a job in a UK school if you cannot get one in a school you want to work at.
Keep as many options in play as long as possible. It may take until 2018 to get the ideal role, so that might work out with daughter's change of school.
Good you had a grown up discussion with them Kids are resilient - and would much prefer a happy father with self esteem that they see on weekends than a glum dad every day.
rosbif77 said:
I need some advice.
I sat down with my kids last night and over a bowl of popcorn chatted about the future. I explained my situation to them. They were very understanding. My son doesn't mind if i return to the UK, he wants to do a master's degree in International Relations or military strategy anyway in Paris, whereas my daughter wants to stay in the same school until she's 18. She doesn't want me to go back to England, although she stated she would prefer to live just with me but still see her mum. Confusing!!!
She'll pass her Brevet ( French secondary educational certificate) in July 2018. She'll be 15 then and at that point would move up to the lycée (6th form). She absolutely doesn't want to leave her current school.
Several options:
1. I return to the UK. My daughter would then have to go to another school. The ex would get full custody under French law.
2. I wait till Summer 2018 when my daughter has finished secondary school. She might then decide to move with me to England.
3. I find another teaching job somewhere else in France. Daughter moves with me. I ask for full custody.
4. I stay in same school. In my free time i work like hell and try to finish My novel manuscipt, i learn to type properly, i improve my IT skills and create a writer's blog/website, and i eventually get published!! I hit the jackpot!!!!
5. Something else i haven't thought of yet!!!!
Hi mate,I sat down with my kids last night and over a bowl of popcorn chatted about the future. I explained my situation to them. They were very understanding. My son doesn't mind if i return to the UK, he wants to do a master's degree in International Relations or military strategy anyway in Paris, whereas my daughter wants to stay in the same school until she's 18. She doesn't want me to go back to England, although she stated she would prefer to live just with me but still see her mum. Confusing!!!
She'll pass her Brevet ( French secondary educational certificate) in July 2018. She'll be 15 then and at that point would move up to the lycée (6th form). She absolutely doesn't want to leave her current school.
Several options:
1. I return to the UK. My daughter would then have to go to another school. The ex would get full custody under French law.
2. I wait till Summer 2018 when my daughter has finished secondary school. She might then decide to move with me to England.
3. I find another teaching job somewhere else in France. Daughter moves with me. I ask for full custody.
4. I stay in same school. In my free time i work like hell and try to finish My novel manuscipt, i learn to type properly, i improve my IT skills and create a writer's blog/website, and i eventually get published!! I hit the jackpot!!!!
5. Something else i haven't thought of yet!!!!
1. Is a non starter. You do not want the ex and MIL getting into your daughters head. They would target the fact you put your career ahead of her which is total rubbish.
2. To be honest your daughter aged 18 years of age might want something totally different from what she wants now. You do not want to build your hopes up for this age only to be left disappointed.
3. You know your ex is never going to agree to giving you full custody. But when your daughter is 16 years of age "not sure about France or what was agreed in court" she can decide what she wants to do.
4. This sounds the best plan on paper but basically it is exactly the same as before. Whether you can last until your daughter is 18 years of age under the same daily pressure is another thing.
5. Apart from writing what other passions do you have? Think hard about this one. Anything you would love to do but never thought of doing? Many people make good money on eBay etc. if you have a passion for something. Someone who I know was in the Oil and Gas sector which is not doing well here with the oil prices. Like me he was made redundant but has started a second hand furniture business. Buys from auction and sells in a small shop. His business has taken off due to people wanting cheap furniture.
Obviously this is just an example. You might have a passion which could make you money and be your own boss
Hi there,
Options 4+5 are realistically the best choice because i don't want the ex to get full custody, and with the MIL use my 'running away back to England' to brainwash the kids!!!!
I've never had to get out of my confort zone and take a jump into the unknown before. I suppose you could say i've been drifting aimlessly all my life with no clearly definned personal objectives or career motivation.
I would admit that i've tended to lack ambition and drive career wise, and even though i'm an excellent teacher, i never set out to climb the career ladder.
I must have some drive and interior force because otherwise i would never have had the courage to survive the school bullying, being knocked down or fighting everyone on my own during the divorce.
Where do 'successful' people get their drive and motivation from?
What gives people the extra drive to aim higher than the rest of us?
Concerning finding a way to turn a passion into a money making venture/job, well i've always been passionate about cars, history, writing action/adventure stories, and finally photography.
Those are the things that get my adrenaline going. I've been fascinated by sports cars since my youth ( a neighbour bought an E type Jaguar), and my grandad took me to see James Hunt racing. That was 1976 i think.
The writing part, which you know about already, was an escape from the reality of school/home. I would spend any money i had on buying Commando/Look and Learn mags. Then i'd make up my own stories inspired by something i'd read.
As for photography i won a couple of prizes whilst at school for my photos of The New Forest. I would also sneak out of the house and photo the cruise liners sailing up The Solent, or try to snap the yacht racing.
I want to get away from here, i want a chance to start again, and i want to be financially independent with my own house and enough to live of when i retire. That's a lot of wants i know but i just don't know how to get them!
Options 4+5 are realistically the best choice because i don't want the ex to get full custody, and with the MIL use my 'running away back to England' to brainwash the kids!!!!
I've never had to get out of my confort zone and take a jump into the unknown before. I suppose you could say i've been drifting aimlessly all my life with no clearly definned personal objectives or career motivation.
I would admit that i've tended to lack ambition and drive career wise, and even though i'm an excellent teacher, i never set out to climb the career ladder.
I must have some drive and interior force because otherwise i would never have had the courage to survive the school bullying, being knocked down or fighting everyone on my own during the divorce.
Where do 'successful' people get their drive and motivation from?
What gives people the extra drive to aim higher than the rest of us?
Concerning finding a way to turn a passion into a money making venture/job, well i've always been passionate about cars, history, writing action/adventure stories, and finally photography.
Those are the things that get my adrenaline going. I've been fascinated by sports cars since my youth ( a neighbour bought an E type Jaguar), and my grandad took me to see James Hunt racing. That was 1976 i think.
The writing part, which you know about already, was an escape from the reality of school/home. I would spend any money i had on buying Commando/Look and Learn mags. Then i'd make up my own stories inspired by something i'd read.
As for photography i won a couple of prizes whilst at school for my photos of The New Forest. I would also sneak out of the house and photo the cruise liners sailing up The Solent, or try to snap the yacht racing.
I want to get away from here, i want a chance to start again, and i want to be financially independent with my own house and enough to live of when i retire. That's a lot of wants i know but i just don't know how to get them!
Edited by rosbif77 on Wednesday 2nd November 14:38
rosbif77 said:
Hi there,
Options 4+5 are realistically the best choice because i don't want the ex to get full custody, and with the MIL use my 'running away back to England' to brainwash the kids!!!!
Can I jump in on this? You're pinning your hopes, happiness and dreams on something that's outside of your control with a few of your options. If that goes to sOptions 4+5 are realistically the best choice because i don't want the ex to get full custody, and with the MIL use my 'running away back to England' to brainwash the kids!!!!
t, then that's going to be hard to try and recover from. If you think about what you can actually control (dont include other people, they dont like it), which is your own actions/reactions and how you process and deal with things, it'll make whatever choice you decide to make a lot easier to live with.
Because doing something and it being the wrong choice is better than pontificating and pondering on what's the best of a s
tty situation. I'm not saying jump in and figure it out later, have some kind of plan. Put another way, there's always going to be bumps in the road, and having your hands on the wheel and your feet on the pedals will let you decide whether you want to slow down for the bumps or drive around them. If it was me, I think I'd tackle the ex head on and get it over and done with as a situation because it'll build and build the longer it's left. If you want to do A and the ex is stopping you, maybe there's a B
Also, if you're thinking of hanging your hat on photography, it's a sure fire way to make a small fortune even smaller. It's a good hobby to have, not a sole income generator.
MYOB said:
To be honest, I wouldn't do anything that would mean my kids having to change school. They would never forgive me!
You have my sympathies for being in this situation. Is there really nothing else to be done to ensure your daughter stays at the school?
To be honest, the schooling wishes of a 13 year old, while important, cannot be the sole driver for an adult's decision making for the sake of his own happiness and self esteem. Therein lies the problem. If you make all your decisions based on what makes everybody else happy, you will end up unhappy unless your needs coincide with theirs.You have my sympathies for being in this situation. Is there really nothing else to be done to ensure your daughter stays at the school?
If an amazing opportunity arose and it meant daughter moving school, you'd be doing yourself a mis-service by ruling it out.
johnfm said:
To be honest, the schooling wishes of a 13 year old, while important, cannot be the sole driver for an adult's decision making for the sake of his own happiness and self esteem. Therein lies the problem. If you make all your decisions based on what makes everybody else happy, you will end up unhappy unless your needs coincide with theirs.
If an amazing opportunity arose and it meant daughter moving school, you'd be doing yourself a mis-service by ruling it out.
Yes, I agree sometimes one has to make a decision that will benefit the family. This may entail the kids changing school in some circumstances. However, Rob is having to choose to put either his daughter or himself first. The danger here, as I'm sure Rob appreciates, is if he puts himself first and gets a job elsewhere and move away, his daughter has to change school away from her friends as well as be apart from her father. This has the potential to cause resentment as she grows up. If an amazing opportunity arose and it meant daughter moving school, you'd be doing yourself a mis-service by ruling it out.
It's not quite so straightforward to say he has to put himself first when there are many ramifications regarding his daughter.
The ex decided to put herself first by breaking up the family for a 'toyboy' 7 years younger.
I put my children first instead of jumping at the first opportunity to start over again elsewhere.
My son's gone of to uni so the only issue concerns my daughter.
The divorce has certainly reinforced our relationship.
I know i'm stuck where i am unless i put my desires before my daughter's. She already has one parent who chose selfishness over the children, so that's the problem.
I put my children first instead of jumping at the first opportunity to start over again elsewhere.
My son's gone of to uni so the only issue concerns my daughter.
The divorce has certainly reinforced our relationship.
I know i'm stuck where i am unless i put my desires before my daughter's. She already has one parent who chose selfishness over the children, so that's the problem.
rosbif77 said:
The ex decided to put herself first by breaking up the family for a 'toyboy' 7 years younger.
I put my children first instead of jumping at the first opportunity to start over again elsewhere.
My son's gone of to uni so the only issue concerns my daughter.
The divorce has certainly reinforced our relationship.
I know i'm stuck where i am unless i put my desires before my daughter's. She already has one parent who chose selfishness over the children, so that's the problem.
As a parent as I am sure most of us on here are you have to put your daughters feelings first especially when she is 13 years of age.I put my children first instead of jumping at the first opportunity to start over again elsewhere.
My son's gone of to uni so the only issue concerns my daughter.
The divorce has certainly reinforced our relationship.
I know i'm stuck where i am unless i put my desires before my daughter's. She already has one parent who chose selfishness over the children, so that's the problem.
As you now know that you can't leave at this moment in time you have to look at the position you are in now.
Things have to change to make sure your happiness and health does not suffer.
I have been a huge car fan since being young but actually selling cars and being a fan of cars is totally different.
After looking into this myself the pitfalls are huge.
The money is made buying the car at the right price. Selling it is the easy part. Having a mechanical side and being able to know issues and fix them yourself will save a fortune in garage bills.
Best buying cheap cars say £500-£1,000 and trying it that way if you wanted to give it a go.
Again it is a capital thing.
Any chance of tutoring kids in France but in a different town from where you are?
As a slight aside, got a tiny little idea which you may or may nor like (and this is almost sure to already exist, but you could put your own slant on it).
You've mentioned you love history. Why don't you have a stab at making short youtube vids about, for instance Horrible Histories?
Basically you pick out something which happened in the past which ended up in a gruesome event worthy of note and make a concise vid about it - ie Samuel Pepys claimed that a severed head responded to being spoken to/shouted at for up to six minutes if I recall?
Or the terror that the guillotine provoked when it was first used because death in those days was very rarely, if ever, instant?
Perhaps you could look at art history as well, there seems to be plenty of material there to talk about, or to shock the viewer a little.
ie apparently George Stubbs, the artist who made anatomically correct illustrations/paintings of horses could only do so because he would strip the skin away etc, after carrying dead horses up the stairs to his studio SINGLE HANDEDLY!
Bet you've got loads of examples as well as everything you'd need to make your first upload.
You've mentioned you love history. Why don't you have a stab at making short youtube vids about, for instance Horrible Histories?
Basically you pick out something which happened in the past which ended up in a gruesome event worthy of note and make a concise vid about it - ie Samuel Pepys claimed that a severed head responded to being spoken to/shouted at for up to six minutes if I recall?
Or the terror that the guillotine provoked when it was first used because death in those days was very rarely, if ever, instant?
Perhaps you could look at art history as well, there seems to be plenty of material there to talk about, or to shock the viewer a little.
ie apparently George Stubbs, the artist who made anatomically correct illustrations/paintings of horses could only do so because he would strip the skin away etc, after carrying dead horses up the stairs to his studio SINGLE HANDEDLY!
Bet you've got loads of examples as well as everything you'd need to make your first upload.
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