Really depressed

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Meant to have the kids tomorrow . Do I tell ex what happened as all I want to do is crawl in a corner , how can I look after them if I can't look after myself , send her a link to this?

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227 Bhp that was no help what's so ever , I've done tough mudder run serval mathathons and you tell me to man up? This is different !! Ex just text , police have phoned her , her message was not seeing my children , Christ doesn't she undwrstam, if I can't see children nothing to live for , how dare you say I can't or don't want to see them they are my life

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This thread has kept me going and I know saved my life I've got pm to reply to people who want to talk to me and I've taken all the advice , including seeing a gp tomorrow , and guess what I do feel down , I now can't see my children , 227 bhp post has been the worse so far, , thank god I'm not listening to you , because of the consideration of others

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And to call me an attention we where all I've done is apologise for bothering people , well done mate, yes I feel worse about myself

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Easy to concentrate on the crap maybes he's right

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Why did 227 Bhp have to say that

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Why did 227 Bhp have to say that

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I get that , and I will , but the other stuff has really really knocked me down, I can't mtfu , making excuses to see my kids , fk no they are the only reason I'm here now I can't see them, doesn't leave much

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Just want to end it all now

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I was told to man the fk up, can't do that so I failed

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Hi still here , although found it very tough with all the negative thoughts and what my ex was saying about not seeing the children, she aaid I'm not her Responsibility,
Nice so full of understanding

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Hi sorry not been on here just trying to process , so just got back from gp, what a complete waste of time , told her what happened and she couldn't of been any less interested, even though I had taken an over dose on sat ! Long story short she sent me away saying I need to make a phone call for counsling , and to see her in a week , feel like it's a step back

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Finding everything really hard to process and not even sure what day it is , I just want to say I'm reading everything on this forum and I would 100% say you have saved my life , will consider the whole meeting up , emails whenam I can think a bit straighter , but please all do not underestimate the positive effect you have had on me , your are truly life savers

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Spent most of my day in bed , but got up and spent 2 hours cleaning my room , how sad am I renting a room at my age , but it was a massive struggle and I managed to do it, felt exchausted after , which wasn't so good

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Feel like I want to post /chat all evening what do I do?

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Going to look at all the available options tomorrow , just in the mood to chat /vent/talk not sure how to go about it

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Thank you that's really assuring, what do I do about wanting to chat ? Keep posting or samiritons etc

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I'm over whelmed with the response here , evenings are worse for me. But you guys will make me survive another day , please remember that , but I don't want to be a burden
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All those addresses were old , I'm in Shepperton , part of how I'm feeling is not wanting to do anything to help myself but I want to talk, how crap is that !

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Didn't get it?