Really depressed
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Robster said:
Right so a good day today , friend came over for a bit of xbox (boys and their toys) which was fun and I've managed to upload cv on a couple of websites , best thing...got a message from online counsling , they are going to phone me and set cbt training up! Nervous but relived!
Great stuff Rob - a bit of play and a bit of work. CBT is a great idea, go with it.Robster said:
Not feeling like I'm doing great , just one foot in front of another , I'll keep going
To be quite honest, having been as poorly as you were on your worst day, you being here at all represents doing pretty great. And yeah, some days will just be survival, and that's fine - not every day has to involve grand triumphs. One step after the next and a chance for things to get better with each. Rob,
Sorry to hear that you are not feeling great Rob.
Sometimes the time immediately after a good time can be very hard as it all feels like a spiral of uncontrollable sadness.
That said - remember you are capable of having a good time and you have friends that want to spend time with you doing fun things
- that always helps me.
Hope you begin to feel a little better soon Rob.
Sorry to hear that you are not feeling great Rob.
Sometimes the time immediately after a good time can be very hard as it all feels like a spiral of uncontrollable sadness.
That said - remember you are capable of having a good time and you have friends that want to spend time with you doing fun things
- that always helps me. Hope you begin to feel a little better soon Rob.
Since I can't sleep a quick update , had 6 questionnaires emailed to me from the online counsling, found it quite sobering, but was good to be honest , can't help thinking how amazing we live in a country that can offer these services for free, got a nice message from the person who will be helping me so that's nice , all new to me. But determined to smash this illness!
Hi Rob,
Nothing stupid about that, even when feeling 100% going to the bank is nobody's idea of fun.
Having been in a similar position to you at times (and who knows, could be again) I know what a mammoth task these things can feel like. So give yourself the credit you deserve. The fact that you are planning on going at all is a sign of recovery, as you said yourself previously you would have ignored it, this is all progress.
Nothing stupid about that, even when feeling 100% going to the bank is nobody's idea of fun.
Having been in a similar position to you at times (and who knows, could be again) I know what a mammoth task these things can feel like. So give yourself the credit you deserve. The fact that you are planning on going at all is a sign of recovery, as you said yourself previously you would have ignored it, this is all progress.
Robster said:
Need to go to the bank , sounds stupid but a few days ago would of ignored it, but I'm going later on to sort some stuff out , find it a bit tiring after I've 'pushed myself' but going to do it anyway!
I definitely echo Rob's sentiments here, I know its tough asking for help and if you go to your GP like I did, don't hold back, I went in meekly at one stage when I felt at breaking point but because I just said I'm feeling a bit down or off. He just told me to get some excercise, the correct diagnosis for the level of illness I portrayed.
It took me about 3 years to go back again and this time I told him everything, thoughts of self-harm, the works. He arranged immediate counselling (CBT) and started me on medication which I am now a year later slowly coming off.
Doctors are human and can miss something, as a patient, you have a certain amount of responsibility to tell them as much as you can, I know it's hard but trust me the benefits of doing so outweigh this difficulty 100 to 1. I was a man on the brink and now I'm generally a pretty happy guy and I know where to go if that changes.
Step 1 was talking, whatever way you can get the words out just do it, whether it's a doctor, a trusted friend or a family member you will instantly feel lighter and day by day you will recover.
It took me about 3 years to go back again and this time I told him everything, thoughts of self-harm, the works. He arranged immediate counselling (CBT) and started me on medication which I am now a year later slowly coming off.
Doctors are human and can miss something, as a patient, you have a certain amount of responsibility to tell them as much as you can, I know it's hard but trust me the benefits of doing so outweigh this difficulty 100 to 1. I was a man on the brink and now I'm generally a pretty happy guy and I know where to go if that changes.
Step 1 was talking, whatever way you can get the words out just do it, whether it's a doctor, a trusted friend or a family member you will instantly feel lighter and day by day you will recover.
Robster said:
Whilst I'm feeling positive can I just say if anyone is feeling down or depressed please talk to someone , everyday talking on this forum supports me , don't leave it too long like I did
Robster said:
Since I can't sleep a quick update , had 6 questionnaires emailed to me from the online counsling, found it quite sobering, but was good to be honest , can't help thinking how amazing we live in a country that can offer these services for free, got a nice message from the person who will be helping me so that's nice , all new to me. But determined to smash this illness!
I found the same. Once I had showed my GP how I was really feeling the on-line counselling kicked in and I soon got a call. I had meds too and between them both they really made a difference. I met a girl and things really went well until she decided to end the relationship suddenly and for no apparent reason. Meanwhile I had been weaning myself off the meds so wasn't the best timing.
So things have not been so good but using what I learned in counselling and then your thread mate, has really helped me as I too am taking onboard what the other posters are suggesting.
Cheers to you Rob and I'm rooting for you.
Really great to see you keeping at it mate. You are not alone and you are most certainly right when you say talking helps. Keep up the good work and you will be back on track before you know it. I am not going to lie though, sometimes you will still have off days, but they will get fewer and further between as time goes on. You have my number if you need it.
Rob
Feel free to tell me to f
k right off. But if the bank, and financial matters is something that gets you down, feel free to PM me your contact details for advice.
I've read this thread with interest and concern. Feeling powerless, too far away, never felt like you do etc. Now here is something I'm good at.
So if numbers scare you (I imagine they don't given your profession), shout up.
Feel free to tell me to f
k right off. But if the bank, and financial matters is something that gets you down, feel free to PM me your contact details for advice. I've read this thread with interest and concern. Feeling powerless, too far away, never felt like you do etc. Now here is something I'm good at.
So if numbers scare you (I imagine they don't given your profession), shout up. Wow what a day of mixed emotions ,ups and downs, went to the bank there was a fire alarm so everyone queuing outside,I couldn't handle the stress of who was going to get served first and my place in the queue I had to leave,that's a new one for me, work phoned although they have my sick notes they need to talk to me,can't face phoning them though. Then had a call from mental health service,they had visited whilst I was out,the positive I'm taking out of it is that they don't think my case is severe enough for their dept,they deal with extreme cases, so I'm going to do concentrate on the cbt
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