Really depressed
Discussion
'Morning Rob. Well done on completing the benefit forms, get them in without delay and that'll be one less thing to think about. As Craig wrote, delivering them will be today's achievement, today's 'step'. You've recognised that it'll be a step at a time and with reassurance and help from your GP and others, you'll soon be able to take more of those steps. As other have suggested, have a go at getting outside, you'll be surprised how theraputic fresh air can be.
It's actually a couple of years old but I saw this painful, insightful cartoon by Erika Moen about depression and wanting to stop existing for the first time, just this morning, and wanted to share it.
https://thenib.com/i-want-to-live-6a40fbc76ef4
It's very much how I feel - how much it would hurt people I know care about me (even some of those I don't actually feel that close to) is almost totally the only reason I'm still here some days.
https://thenib.com/i-want-to-live-6a40fbc76ef4
It's very much how I feel - how much it would hurt people I know care about me (even some of those I don't actually feel that close to) is almost totally the only reason I'm still here some days.
HappyMidget said:
Cheers for lending an ear last night Rob, just needed to vent a bit. All good now. Hope you enjoy your tunnel run today 
Mind if I ask a question with no malice at all intended.If you are feeling depressed(person1) and someone else who is depressed(person2) is wanting to offload/vent/try to make themselves feelbetter, do you think it's fair on the depressed person 1 listening/trying to help depressed person 2? Does the depressed person 1 feel better about themselves for helping someone else in the same position or does it make them feel in a worse place?
As said, I'm genuinely not having a go, I'm just interested. it's something I have no understanding about as I'm a glass half full person and don't think I have ever felt like I am depressed, but I do know of some friends who would feel depressed at times and I'm ok to let them vent to me, I try and offer what advise/help I can, but I'm wondering if I was feeling depressed how it would make me feel as sometimes it is hard for me to understand how they just can't deal with whatever the issue is as in my head it's something trivial/simple that I feel if I was in the position I would just do what I needed to do to fix the situation.
Mgd_uk said:
HappyMidget said:
Cheers for lending an ear last night Rob, just needed to vent a bit. All good now. Hope you enjoy your tunnel run today
Mind if I ask a question with no malice at all intended.If you are feeling depressed(person1) and someone else who is depressed(person2) is wanting to offload/vent/try to make themselves feelbetter, do you think it's fair on the depressed person 1 listening/trying to help depressed person 2? Does the depressed person 1 feel better about themselves for helping someone else in the same position or does it make them feel in a worse place?
As said, I'm genuinely not having a go, I'm just interested. it's something I have no understanding about as I'm a glass half full person and don't think I have ever felt like I am depressed, but I do know of some friends who would feel depressed at times and I'm ok to let them vent to me, I try and offer what advise/help I can, but I'm wondering if I was feeling depressed how it would make me feel as sometimes it is hard for me to understand how they just can't deal with whatever the issue is as in my head it's something trivial/simple that I feel if I was in the position I would just do what I needed to do to fix the situation.
FlyingMeeces said:
It's actually a couple of years old but I saw this painful, insightful cartoon by Erika Moen about depression and wanting to stop existing for the first time, just this morning, and wanted to share it.
https://thenib.com/i-want-to-live-6a40fbc76ef4
I find that very interesting, especially as it mentions Robin Williams.https://thenib.com/i-want-to-live-6a40fbc76ef4
When he killed himself, it threw me into a real slump and I wanted to kill myself MORE than I had previously.
My thought process at the time was something like, if someone who I idolised - who was so incredibly talented, successful, funny, wealthy and who could light up a room or have them in stitches practically just with a facial expression - resorts to that, then what hope was there for little old me?
I remember speaking to my therapist about that for a while.
My one reason for not doing it was my spouse....and then following an affair and what some would interpret as abuse (both on their part, not mine) we separated and the marriage ended.
That was the point that I found myself stood on a tube station platform about to step off. I can remember the exact spot, platform, line, and time, and to this day when in London I cannot go there. Anyones else's feelings aren't really a concern at that point - you perceive it as you doing them a favour by ceasing to exist and stopping being a burden on them.
Somehow, and I really don't know how or why, I am still here.
Today is a particularly sh*tty day - definitely not helped by the unusual weather where I am right now - but I am still here.
Hang in there Rob.
ps- Could I respectfully request that you please don't quote this post as I may edit/delete it at a later date.
Edited by GCH on Friday 14th October 21:01
Hi Rob, how have you been? I've had a bit of an up and down weekend with my blood pressure all over the place thanks to my medication so sorry for not writing before now. Have you managed to get out? Give it a go, even if you just go for a walk on your own and don't talk to anyone, you'll feel better for it.
Hey Rob, hows your week going?
Hope your weather is better down there! - getting cold up here, but then again lovely clear crisp mornings are lovely. If you want to have a wander over the Highlands page in the roads section, some amazing scenery there, makes me want to get out there all the more!
Hope your weather is better down there! - getting cold up here, but then again lovely clear crisp mornings are lovely. If you want to have a wander over the Highlands page in the roads section, some amazing scenery there, makes me want to get out there all the more!
Hi all, thanks for asking after me , been a strange week with ups and downs,but finally had some ups, got taken to driving range which made me smile and had the pleasure of Barny and Anne coming over today for pizza, x box and red dwarf, so I've gone from not wanting to seeing anyone to actually being socialble! I'm doing weekly online cbt which I'm finding useful, my biggest stress at the moment is being signed off and no money, housing Benifit claim still ongoing,and I can't face seeing my kids and ex yet, baby steps I guess, hope everyone is doing ok? Keep smiling guys , rob
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