Ex Footballer blog. Feedback and opinions appreciated.
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My new blog reveals my position and the reasons why I felt I needed to. Feedback as always is appreciated, good or bad.
My new blog reveals my position and the reasons why I felt I needed to. Feedback as always is appreciated, good or bad.
blindswelledrat said:
Hope you get better soon. At least you are seeing the Doctors and at least it IS treatable. Good luck.
On the subject of your blog, being as nbody else will tell you, it's a bit crap if you don't mind my saying. Yours is an interesting story and the whole premise of it is 'how football ruined my life' and yet none of it is about how football ruined your life and more about how you are currently feeling. I genuinely mean this to be constructive but if you had titled your blog "Daily diaries of someone with depression" how many people would ever read it?
What I hoped to find and would genuinely have been interested in, is a serialisation about your life until now, and how you got into it and how it ruined your life.
Unless of course I have missed a great chunk of blog somewhere along the line?
As I said, hope this is constructive but Im happy to delete it if you don't think so - just drop me a pm
No need to delete, your entitled to your opinion be it good or bad. Have you read the early posts detailing my career? I have documented a large part early on.On the subject of your blog, being as nbody else will tell you, it's a bit crap if you don't mind my saying. Yours is an interesting story and the whole premise of it is 'how football ruined my life' and yet none of it is about how football ruined your life and more about how you are currently feeling. I genuinely mean this to be constructive but if you had titled your blog "Daily diaries of someone with depression" how many people would ever read it?
What I hoped to find and would genuinely have been interested in, is a serialisation about your life until now, and how you got into it and how it ruined your life.
Unless of course I have missed a great chunk of blog somewhere along the line?
As I said, hope this is constructive but Im happy to delete it if you don't think so - just drop me a pm
blindswelledrat said:
Ruskie said:
No need to delete, your entitled to your opinion be it good or bad. Have you read the early posts detailing my career? I have documented a large part early on.
Ah, no - that's what I was looking for which would have tied it all together.Posts on PH or posts on the blog?
The start of this blog was perhaps a week after I started it so maybe start there. Let me know your revised opinion. I don't mind if you still think it's s
t!XM5ER said:
I read your blog Ruskie, thanks for sharing it. It cant really offer any sage words having never gone through the depths you have but, I hope that it helps you to know that your blog will help me in understanding some people around me.
Thank you for taking the time to read and let me know your thoughts. The Crack Fox said:
Nicely written, if somewhat sad of course, you're obviously going through tough times and I hope you'll work it out.
It's rare to read something nicely written, sincere and engaging from a footballer. I see you're a Paramedic now. Why not blog about that in more detail? Writing about something positive might make you feel a bit more positive. I'm no psychiatrist, by the way, but I wonder if that might help you. You must come across some funny, ugly and odd scenarios that folks would like to read about, perhaps?
Good luck, and keep up the good work
Thank you very much for the feedback. I agree with your point but it is far more complicated to blog about life as a paramedic due to issues with anonymity, patient confidentiality and staff confidentiality. I would need permission from my trust to do it and even then they might not agree.It's rare to read something nicely written, sincere and engaging from a footballer. I see you're a Paramedic now. Why not blog about that in more detail? Writing about something positive might make you feel a bit more positive. I'm no psychiatrist, by the way, but I wonder if that might help you. You must come across some funny, ugly and odd scenarios that folks would like to read about, perhaps?
Good luck, and keep up the good work
A lesson learnt. Depression never leaves you.
https://howfootballruinedmylife.wordpress.com/2015...
This blog post is, I feel as raw and uncut as I have ever wrote. It is how I feel at this exact moment and I make no apologies for that. After it wouldn't be a very good blog if I diluted my thoughts and didn't explain what it's like to suffer with depression.
https://howfootballruinedmylife.wordpress.com/2015...
This blog post is, I feel as raw and uncut as I have ever wrote. It is how I feel at this exact moment and I make no apologies for that. After it wouldn't be a very good blog if I diluted my thoughts and didn't explain what it's like to suffer with depression.
This blog post is very dark and if your not in a positive frame of mind you might be best avoiding it.
It is however me baring my soul and being completely honest about how I feel. No bullst, undiluted and honest.
https://howfootballruinedmylife.wordpress.com/2015...
It is however me baring my soul and being completely honest about how I feel. No bulls
t, undiluted and honest. https://howfootballruinedmylife.wordpress.com/2015...
mikeyr said:
Ruskie - or indeed others on this thread - have you listened to any of the Guardian Football weekly podcasts they are putting out at the moment?
The interview with Dean Windass is tough listening at times when he is discussing drinking, divorce guilt and drunken suicide attempts. There is also one with goalkeeper Jimmy Neilsen and his chronic gambling issues.
I will definitely check that out, I played with Deano, indeed I got a brief mention in his autobiography.The interview with Dean Windass is tough listening at times when he is discussing drinking, divorce guilt and drunken suicide attempts. There is also one with goalkeeper Jimmy Neilsen and his chronic gambling issues.
The Crack Fox said:
Ruskie said:
Thank you very much for the feedback. I agree with your point but it is far more complicated to blog about life as a paramedic due to issues with anonymity, patient confidentiality and staff confidentiality. I would need permission from my trust to do it and even then they might not agree.
Sure, I get that. Why not change the names and locations and anything that would identify an individual (such as age or rare medical issues etc) ? You don't need permission from anyone to do that. You write so nicely and Paramedics must see some things that us lot would love to hear about (good and bad). Instead of stressing about the grind of going to work you might look forward to coming across new adventures you can share with your readers instead, funny stuff, crazy stuff, people love to read about that and I'm sure you can do it. It might help you think a bit more positively too, who knows?I see you have a 330CI Sport. I had one too. Get your arse along to one of the sprint events a PHer runs and do some skids, info here: https://www.facebook.com/SprintAndTrackday?fref=ts
Good luck
When I started the blog I had three things in mind.
- To raise awareness of mental health/depression in men.
- To raise awareness of mental health/depression in professional football.
- To aid my recovery if at all possible.
To help continue raising awareness I have started a page on facebook. If you could take time to like and share my original blog post posted on there I would be immensely grateful. Thanks a lot.
https://www.facebook.com/pages/How-Football-ruined...
- To raise awareness of mental health/depression in men.
- To raise awareness of mental health/depression in professional football.
- To aid my recovery if at all possible.
To help continue raising awareness I have started a page on facebook. If you could take time to like and share my original blog post posted on there I would be immensely grateful. Thanks a lot.
https://www.facebook.com/pages/How-Football-ruined...
I have been quiet lately but it's there stalking me. I'm on the brink of a crippling down period. This is my first blog for a month. The catalyst is insomnia and rejection.
As always I really appreciate any feedback and interaction, good or bad.
https://howfootballruinedmylife.wordpress.com/2015...
As always I really appreciate any feedback and interaction, good or bad.
https://howfootballruinedmylife.wordpress.com/2015...
Reality. I'm getting really good at this depression thing.
https://howfootballruinedmylife.wordpress.com/2015...
https://howfootballruinedmylife.wordpress.com/2015...
https://howfootballruinedmylife.wordpress.com/2015...
Bits. In total bits.
To those who have sent me personal messages I will reply I due course. Thanks a lot.
Bits. In total bits.
To those who have sent me personal messages I will reply I due course. Thanks a lot.
TwigtheWonderkid said:
Hi Ruskie,
If you look back, I was the first person to comment on this thread after your initial post. Sorry that things are bad but I can only reiterate what I said then. You used to be a professional footballer. In conversation, you can casually throw in the line "I used to be a professional footballer". For millions of fans like me with no ability to play the game, that line is the coolest line on Earth.
I'd give up a vital body part to be able to casually chuck that into a conversation.
Thank you, that is very true. I tend to be careful where I bring it up, as most of time people don't believe you!If you look back, I was the first person to comment on this thread after your initial post. Sorry that things are bad but I can only reiterate what I said then. You used to be a professional footballer. In conversation, you can casually throw in the line "I used to be a professional footballer". For millions of fans like me with no ability to play the game, that line is the coolest line on Earth.
I'd give up a vital body part to be able to casually chuck that into a conversation.
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