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Hi all
Just typing this in the hope it may somehow make me feel better.
Finished my night shift at 7am and at 9am had to put my dog to sleep - he became very ill after his morning walk. He was 12 years old and had been a true friend to me over the years, I spent a lot of time off work due to a serious back injury and the wee man kept me sane when i was doped up to the eyeballs with painkillers.
I am genuienly distraught at the minute. Even at 12 yrs old everyone in our village thought he was a pup he was so cute. His pic is in my profile if you want a look.
I feel i want to punch a wall or something jst now - I'm feeling guilty/very upset and pretty bloody lost at the minute.
I'd never had a small terrier before but when i met my now wife they came as a package....I loved the wee fellla from the off. Got to start another nightshift at 11pm....not sure how I'll get through that.
I'm presuming time heals etcc etc but my god it hurts like hell - work won't give me the night off.
Anyway - miss you already Ozz - rest in peace wee man.
Just typing this in the hope it may somehow make me feel better.
Finished my night shift at 7am and at 9am had to put my dog to sleep - he became very ill after his morning walk. He was 12 years old and had been a true friend to me over the years, I spent a lot of time off work due to a serious back injury and the wee man kept me sane when i was doped up to the eyeballs with painkillers.
I am genuienly distraught at the minute. Even at 12 yrs old everyone in our village thought he was a pup he was so cute. His pic is in my profile if you want a look.
I feel i want to punch a wall or something jst now - I'm feeling guilty/very upset and pretty bloody lost at the minute.
I'd never had a small terrier before but when i met my now wife they came as a package....I loved the wee fellla from the off. Got to start another nightshift at 11pm....not sure how I'll get through that.
I'm presuming time heals etcc etc but my god it hurts like hell - work won't give me the night off.
Anyway - miss you already Ozz - rest in peace wee man.
I feel for you Barry. It doesn't matter how cute your dog was either. We've just lost our ugly English Bull terrier of 14 years and it hurts. There's just something about not being able to explain to them what's going on that makes things worse. Luckily for us though, I'd discussed 'the visit to the vet' with my wife the week before, but dear old Bernard just went to sleep one day and the vet wasn't needed.
Hopefully you will come to terms with it soon, but it might be worth posting on 'all creatures great and small' to see how others have dealt with it. I got a nice response when Bernard went.
Good luck.
Hopefully you will come to terms with it soon, but it might be worth posting on 'all creatures great and small' to see how others have dealt with it. I got a nice response when Bernard went.
Good luck.
Sorry for your loss, it is very heart breaking when you have to make that decision or they pass away naturally.
You may find more help and support if this is moved to the All Creatures Great & Small Forum, a lot of people in the same boat over there and will perhaps more footfall than on here.
You may find more help and support if this is moved to the All Creatures Great & Small Forum, a lot of people in the same boat over there and will perhaps more footfall than on here.
Craphouserat said:
Hi all
Just typing this in the hope it may somehow make me feel better.
Finished my night shift at 7am and at 9am had to put my dog to sleep - he became very ill after his morning walk. He was 12 years old and had been a true friend to me over the years, I spent a lot of time off work due to a serious back injury and the wee man kept me sane when i was doped up to the eyeballs with painkillers.
I am genuienly distraught at the minute. Even at 12 yrs old everyone in our village thought he was a pup he was so cute. His pic is in my profile if you want a look.
I feel i want to punch a wall or something jst now - I'm feeling guilty/very upset and pretty bloody lost at the minute.
I'd never had a small terrier before but when i met my now wife they came as a package....I loved the wee fellla from the off. Got to start another nightshift at 11pm....not sure how I'll get through that.
I'm presuming time heals etcc etc but my god it hurts like hell - work won't give me the night off.
Anyway - miss you already Ozz - rest in peace wee man.
That's terrible news, sorry to hear.Just typing this in the hope it may somehow make me feel better.
Finished my night shift at 7am and at 9am had to put my dog to sleep - he became very ill after his morning walk. He was 12 years old and had been a true friend to me over the years, I spent a lot of time off work due to a serious back injury and the wee man kept me sane when i was doped up to the eyeballs with painkillers.
I am genuienly distraught at the minute. Even at 12 yrs old everyone in our village thought he was a pup he was so cute. His pic is in my profile if you want a look.
I feel i want to punch a wall or something jst now - I'm feeling guilty/very upset and pretty bloody lost at the minute.
I'd never had a small terrier before but when i met my now wife they came as a package....I loved the wee fellla from the off. Got to start another nightshift at 11pm....not sure how I'll get through that.
I'm presuming time heals etcc etc but my god it hurts like hell - work won't give me the night off.
Anyway - miss you already Ozz - rest in peace wee man.
I can bring myself to tears thinking of 'The Day' when mine isn't there for me anymore; it kills me just thinking about it and he's only 18 months old!!
I'm so sorry for your loss, it sounds like it was very sudden which also makes it quite hard to accept.
I had 6 months of knowing when I was going to lose my Jimmy (and many on here will remember helping me through those months with him) I was still utterly heartbroken (and feelings of guilt, even though I knew I could do no more for him) when the time came. What I can say is tome does heal very slowly but surely, as does talking about them. We still talk about Jimmy over a yr later and regularly but is happy memories (even the time of his illness in a way) we have a new four legged friend who we took on 6 months after losing Jimmy. He is great a wonderful dog in his own right and doesn't seem to mind that he gets called Jimmy on occasion!
So yes you need to grieve/ talk about your furry friend and give time to recover but it will happen. Take care.
I had 6 months of knowing when I was going to lose my Jimmy (and many on here will remember helping me through those months with him) I was still utterly heartbroken (and feelings of guilt, even though I knew I could do no more for him) when the time came. What I can say is tome does heal very slowly but surely, as does talking about them. We still talk about Jimmy over a yr later and regularly but is happy memories (even the time of his illness in a way) we have a new four legged friend who we took on 6 months after losing Jimmy. He is great a wonderful dog in his own right and doesn't seem to mind that he gets called Jimmy on occasion!
So yes you need to grieve/ talk about your furry friend and give time to recover but it will happen. Take care.
Edited by bexVN on Saturday 20th September 16:40
Thanks for moving this.
Thank you all for your comments - it was quite sudden. He was a character and a real one off. Not sure how I'm going to get through a night shift tonight. Want to be home with my wife - we don't have kids so I guess we've treated him as one.
Hopefully when we get the ashes back home I might feel better. The thought of him lieing in a freezer alone is not pleasant. He always wanted to be near us and for a wee dog he could jump quite a height and would always be found beside my wife.
He was a great wee man.
THank you all again.
Thank you all for your comments - it was quite sudden. He was a character and a real one off. Not sure how I'm going to get through a night shift tonight. Want to be home with my wife - we don't have kids so I guess we've treated him as one.
Hopefully when we get the ashes back home I might feel better. The thought of him lieing in a freezer alone is not pleasant. He always wanted to be near us and for a wee dog he could jump quite a height and would always be found beside my wife.
He was a great wee man.
THank you all again.
Digger said:
A bit late, but no chance a colleague would understand and swap shifts with you for one night?
Sorry for your loss.
I'll be taking whatever time off I need to get everything sorted out when Bruce has his day.Sorry for your loss.
With or without permission. My dog is a lot more important than my job!!
I lost my Staffordshire bull terrier Max last Saturday, he was my best friend. I was distraught for the whole weekend and had to wear sunglasses at the Sunday Service as my eyes were so red. Struggled to get through work on Monday just staring at my laptop screen and mostly ignoring the phone. He was 12 too, acted just like a puppy and never grew up, I rushed him to the emergency out of hours vets after he collapsed, but he passed away peacefully on the vets table before they had chance to even take his temperature.
I felt distraught for a few days, then very angry for a few, but after a week (and 3 1/2 hours) I can now look at photos and videos on my phone without welling up too much, and although typing this is difficult, it does get easier.
I felt distraught for a few days, then very angry for a few, but after a week (and 3 1/2 hours) I can now look at photos and videos on my phone without welling up too much, and although typing this is difficult, it does get easier.
markw996 said:
I lost my Staffordshire bull terrier Max last Saturday, he was my best friend. I was distraught for the whole weekend and had to wear sunglasses at the Sunday Service as my eyes were so red. Struggled to get through work on Monday just staring at my laptop screen and mostly ignoring the phone. He was 12 too, acted just like a puppy and never grew up, I rushed him to the emergency out of hours vets after he collapsed, but he passed away peacefully on the vets table before they had chance to even take his temperature.
I felt distraught for a few days, then very angry for a few, but after a week (and 3 1/2 hours) I can now look at photos and videos on my phone without welling up too much, and although typing this is difficult, it does get easier.
I'm so sorry for you - you have said just how i feel rights now. I also feel ashamed and angry...can't even say at what. I feel guilty I never properly apprecited the last time he greeted me on my return home from work...or apreciated and took took extra time on his last walk around the village.I felt distraught for a few days, then very angry for a few, but after a week (and 3 1/2 hours) I can now look at photos and videos on my phone without welling up too much, and although typing this is difficult, it does get easier.
He vommited blood on the vets table and the vet put her head in her hands and we cryed - everyone knew...thats it.
The house feels so empty at this time of night - he would always come through from the main bedroom and join me on the couch for Match of the Day..always !!!!
Went into work and they sent me home..in my work i have to be on the ball - cannot take my probs in. This one is had not to carry around.
Thanks you all again - reading your posts makes me reaslie there are nice people in this world..
cchheers
Barry
This is one of the reasons I got this Forum started in the first place. Other parts of PH are not as friendly as on here, and some people were being insulted when expressing grief at the loss of their animal friends.
Luckily, posters on here have mostly been through what you are going through now, and can empathize and offer comfort, and sometimes even help out.
Sorry for the loss of your little mate, time does heal the rawness, your memories will stay with you for ever.
maggit
Luckily, posters on here have mostly been through what you are going through now, and can empathize and offer comfort, and sometimes even help out.
Sorry for the loss of your little mate, time does heal the rawness, your memories will stay with you for ever.
maggit
I know exactly how you feel. Our dear Milly (Corgi Cross) about 6 weeks ago woke me up at 3am banging and thumping. I got up and found her contorted and twisted, panting and had lost control. I took her to the emergency vet and told she had vestibular Syndrome and would improve.
Over the next week she wobbled here and there to get about then at 8am Monday about a month ago she again woke me up and found her outside the back door and she was screaming in pain. I have never heard a sound like it before and it makes my blood go cold thinking about it.
We called the vet out who put her to sleep on the bed with all of us with her. What made it worse is that our Cavalier jumped into her grave, layed flat on her and tried to part the cover to nuzzle her.
So its been over a month and we have now got a dear sweet little dog as he was so lonely without company and to be honest helped fill a gap.
I know that she was 14, had liver cancer and had also gone senile but I miss her so much. I will admit that I still cry for her as she was such a wonderful dog.
Over the next week she wobbled here and there to get about then at 8am Monday about a month ago she again woke me up and found her outside the back door and she was screaming in pain. I have never heard a sound like it before and it makes my blood go cold thinking about it.
We called the vet out who put her to sleep on the bed with all of us with her. What made it worse is that our Cavalier jumped into her grave, layed flat on her and tried to part the cover to nuzzle her.
So its been over a month and we have now got a dear sweet little dog as he was so lonely without company and to be honest helped fill a gap.
I know that she was 14, had liver cancer and had also gone senile but I miss her so much. I will admit that I still cry for her as she was such a wonderful dog.
My sympathies also, cute little fellow 
I found losing a pet very hard to deal with, my golden retriever Dino was put to sleep last year because he had heart failure - I fed him chicken and stroked his head as the vet gave him the injection - he was the most loyal dog and I felt I had to be there to say my final goodbye. (vet came to the house so he was in familiar surroundings). It was a very bad week because 2 days earlier my other half found our cat dead in the garden - Podger was a stray that just turned up at the same time as we got Dino as a puppy. Sort of serendipity that they arrived together and left together. (I'm welling up just thinking of them
)
What made the loss easier for me to deal with was that we had two other dogs in the household. Despite vowing never to have another cat we now have one from the local rehoming centre - he had good PR
- we've also just got another retriever puppy and are enjoying the joys of a pooping/peeing/chewing bundle of fur.
Dino will never be forgotten, I have fantastic memories him, even my vet sent me a letter describing him as the "dog of a lifetime" - very true.
It's that old cliche of time being a great healer - perhaps one day in the future you will find another dog to love.
(sorry for the ramblings, mrmaggit is correct about this part of PH)
I found losing a pet very hard to deal with, my golden retriever Dino was put to sleep last year because he had heart failure - I fed him chicken and stroked his head as the vet gave him the injection - he was the most loyal dog and I felt I had to be there to say my final goodbye. (vet came to the house so he was in familiar surroundings). It was a very bad week because 2 days earlier my other half found our cat dead in the garden - Podger was a stray that just turned up at the same time as we got Dino as a puppy. Sort of serendipity that they arrived together and left together. (I'm welling up just thinking of them
)What made the loss easier for me to deal with was that we had two other dogs in the household. Despite vowing never to have another cat we now have one from the local rehoming centre - he had good PR
- we've also just got another retriever puppy and are enjoying the joys of a pooping/peeing/chewing bundle of fur. Dino will never be forgotten, I have fantastic memories him, even my vet sent me a letter describing him as the "dog of a lifetime" - very true.
It's that old cliche of time being a great healer - perhaps one day in the future you will find another dog to love.
(sorry for the ramblings, mrmaggit is correct about this part of PH)
Thanks you all so much.
Your own stories have made sure I cannot see the screen as I type !!
He was so special - maybe not having another dog or any kids makes it worse..I don't know. Today I see him everywhere jusrt looking up at me with those big brown eyes. We had crap weather the last week of his life so walks were pretty short. Yesterday and today the sun has been out. The type of autumn days I loved to walk with him. Not looking forward to meetiing the dog walking regulars - he got so much attention from them all.
We never thought we'd get another but I'm not sure I can live without one. I'm on rest days from work next few days and my wife works tomorrwo - I'm not looking forward to being alone in this house tomorrow. The wee man kept me company - always ensuring he was under my feet when I was getting on with housework !! We're about to get some good photos together on amemory stick.
RIP Ozz
Your own stories have made sure I cannot see the screen as I type !!
He was so special - maybe not having another dog or any kids makes it worse..I don't know. Today I see him everywhere jusrt looking up at me with those big brown eyes. We had crap weather the last week of his life so walks were pretty short. Yesterday and today the sun has been out. The type of autumn days I loved to walk with him. Not looking forward to meetiing the dog walking regulars - he got so much attention from them all.
We never thought we'd get another but I'm not sure I can live without one. I'm on rest days from work next few days and my wife works tomorrwo - I'm not looking forward to being alone in this house tomorrow. The wee man kept me company - always ensuring he was under my feet when I was getting on with housework !! We're about to get some good photos together on amemory stick.
RIP Ozz
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