Anyone else getting tired of it all?
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Drive it fix it repeat said:
Not commented in a while, wanted too but didn’t, sure I’m not the only one. Can’t express how sorry I am for some of us who are having a really s
t time of it.
Not sure how to start exactly, Family is having a crap time of it (putting it mildly) and not seeing any mates, no car events or meets, no coping devices basically. Huge feeling of having completely given up and a weird relief that I’ve accepted I just don’t care what happens anymore.
Went out for a long walk today to some places I used to take my dog, nice quiet areas and took a catapult with me (lifelong hobby) so some idle stump shooting while I was out. Nice to get out in the fresh air and did feel better for it, though that quickly returns to a feeling of nothingness as a lot of us seem to be experiencing.
I was dreading the weekend on Friday as I end up doing nothing of any meaning and generally during these times prefer work as it keeps me in routine and feels like I’m accomplishing something (I make stuff). Now the predictably empty weekend is basically over I’m dreading facing work tomorrow. It may be me as I’m no doubt pretty shot mentally but my boss seems to be looking for disagreements at the moment. This causes huge strain as I’m very quiet in person and like to keep to myself and don’t like any kind of confrontation or disagreement (nasty temper/streak in me so I just don’t go there). I’m the only employee and I work with my boss in the same room (workshop) so there’s no escape. No point explaining to him the issues I’m having as it won’t sink in (tried before). Sad as I love my job and it means a lot to me but there’s been a few times I’ve been ready to give it up as I just can’t cope with the unnecessary tension.
Cried my eyes out after work on Friday and just didn’t want to carry on with life. I can’t face opening up and explaining to someone how I’m really feeling, everyone seems to think I’m very strong mentally and stuff doesn’t get to me so don’t ask how I’m doing. Self inflicted really as I don’t open up or let on when I’m having problems and am pretty to the point normally.
Only reason I haven’t seen the GP yet is I don’t like the thought of being labelled as having ‘issues’. Really stupid as it’s obvious I’m not coping at times.
Don’t really know what point I’m getting at, forgotten what I wanted to say really but I expect it’s obvious my mind is in pieces. Only good thing I can see at the moment is that the nights are drawing out which brings a bit of hope.
Sorry for the rambling post, could wright a lot more but can’t think straight to make any sense. Really wish the best for the rest of you.
Really sorry to hear you are struggling. I would recommend speaking to a counsellor. I did some last year and it helped a lot. Have a google and find someone whose face you like, probably a bloke, maybe of similar age. It’s not lying on a couch whilst a stern man in a suit asks you about your parents. You know those quiet nights in the pub with a close mate where you really get a lot of stuff off your chest? When you find a good counsellor it’s like that. Especially important as we can’t do those nights in the pub anymore!t time of it. Not sure how to start exactly, Family is having a crap time of it (putting it mildly) and not seeing any mates, no car events or meets, no coping devices basically. Huge feeling of having completely given up and a weird relief that I’ve accepted I just don’t care what happens anymore.
Went out for a long walk today to some places I used to take my dog, nice quiet areas and took a catapult with me (lifelong hobby) so some idle stump shooting while I was out. Nice to get out in the fresh air and did feel better for it, though that quickly returns to a feeling of nothingness as a lot of us seem to be experiencing.
I was dreading the weekend on Friday as I end up doing nothing of any meaning and generally during these times prefer work as it keeps me in routine and feels like I’m accomplishing something (I make stuff). Now the predictably empty weekend is basically over I’m dreading facing work tomorrow. It may be me as I’m no doubt pretty shot mentally but my boss seems to be looking for disagreements at the moment. This causes huge strain as I’m very quiet in person and like to keep to myself and don’t like any kind of confrontation or disagreement (nasty temper/streak in me so I just don’t go there). I’m the only employee and I work with my boss in the same room (workshop) so there’s no escape. No point explaining to him the issues I’m having as it won’t sink in (tried before). Sad as I love my job and it means a lot to me but there’s been a few times I’ve been ready to give it up as I just can’t cope with the unnecessary tension.
Cried my eyes out after work on Friday and just didn’t want to carry on with life. I can’t face opening up and explaining to someone how I’m really feeling, everyone seems to think I’m very strong mentally and stuff doesn’t get to me so don’t ask how I’m doing. Self inflicted really as I don’t open up or let on when I’m having problems and am pretty to the point normally.
Only reason I haven’t seen the GP yet is I don’t like the thought of being labelled as having ‘issues’. Really stupid as it’s obvious I’m not coping at times.
Don’t really know what point I’m getting at, forgotten what I wanted to say really but I expect it’s obvious my mind is in pieces. Only good thing I can see at the moment is that the nights are drawing out which brings a bit of hope.
Sorry for the rambling post, could wright a lot more but can’t think straight to make any sense. Really wish the best for the rest of you.
Drive it fix it repeat said:
Not commented in a while, wanted too but didn’t, sure I’m not the only one. Can’t express how sorry I am for some of us who are having a really st time of it.
Not sure how to start exactly, Family is having a crap time of it (putting it mildly) and not seeing any mates, no car events or meets, no coping devices basically. Huge feeling of having completely given up and a weird relief that I’ve accepted I just don’t care what happens anymore.
Went out for a long walk today to some places I used to take my dog, nice quiet areas and took a catapult with me (lifelong hobby) so some idle stump shooting while I was out. Nice to get out in the fresh air and did feel better for it, though that quickly returns to a feeling of nothingness as a lot of us seem to be experiencing.
I was dreading the weekend on Friday as I end up doing nothing of any meaning and generally during these times prefer work as it keeps me in routine and feels like I’m accomplishing something (I make stuff). Now the predictably empty weekend is basically over I’m dreading facing work tomorrow. It may be me as I’m no doubt pretty shot mentally but my boss seems to be looking for disagreements at the moment. This causes huge strain as I’m very quiet in person and like to keep to myself and don’t like any kind of confrontation or disagreement (nasty temper/streak in me so I just don’t go there). I’m the only employee and I work with my boss in the same room (workshop) so there’s no escape. No point explaining to him the issues I’m having as it won’t sink in (tried before). Sad as I love my job and it means a lot to me but there’s been a few times I’ve been ready to give it up as I just can’t cope with the unnecessary tension.
Cried my eyes out after work on Friday and just didn’t want to carry on with life. I can’t face opening up and explaining to someone how I’m really feeling, everyone seems to think I’m very strong mentally and stuff doesn’t get to me so don’t ask how I’m doing. Self inflicted really as I don’t open up or let on when I’m having problems and am pretty to the point normally.
Only reason I haven’t seen the GP yet is I don’t like the thought of being labelled as having ‘issues’. Really stupid as it’s obvious I’m not coping at times.
Don’t really know what point I’m getting at, forgotten what I wanted to say really but I expect it’s obvious my mind is in pieces. Only good thing I can see at the moment is that the nights are drawing out which brings a bit of hope.
Sorry for the rambling post, could wright a lot more but can’t think straight to make any sense. Really wish the best for the rest of you.
You're not alone, and don't apologise for rambling. I like to think that this thread is somewhere we can call ramble, spout, complain, curse, rant etc. t time of it. Not sure how to start exactly, Family is having a crap time of it (putting it mildly) and not seeing any mates, no car events or meets, no coping devices basically. Huge feeling of having completely given up and a weird relief that I’ve accepted I just don’t care what happens anymore.
Went out for a long walk today to some places I used to take my dog, nice quiet areas and took a catapult with me (lifelong hobby) so some idle stump shooting while I was out. Nice to get out in the fresh air and did feel better for it, though that quickly returns to a feeling of nothingness as a lot of us seem to be experiencing.
I was dreading the weekend on Friday as I end up doing nothing of any meaning and generally during these times prefer work as it keeps me in routine and feels like I’m accomplishing something (I make stuff). Now the predictably empty weekend is basically over I’m dreading facing work tomorrow. It may be me as I’m no doubt pretty shot mentally but my boss seems to be looking for disagreements at the moment. This causes huge strain as I’m very quiet in person and like to keep to myself and don’t like any kind of confrontation or disagreement (nasty temper/streak in me so I just don’t go there). I’m the only employee and I work with my boss in the same room (workshop) so there’s no escape. No point explaining to him the issues I’m having as it won’t sink in (tried before). Sad as I love my job and it means a lot to me but there’s been a few times I’ve been ready to give it up as I just can’t cope with the unnecessary tension.
Cried my eyes out after work on Friday and just didn’t want to carry on with life. I can’t face opening up and explaining to someone how I’m really feeling, everyone seems to think I’m very strong mentally and stuff doesn’t get to me so don’t ask how I’m doing. Self inflicted really as I don’t open up or let on when I’m having problems and am pretty to the point normally.
Only reason I haven’t seen the GP yet is I don’t like the thought of being labelled as having ‘issues’. Really stupid as it’s obvious I’m not coping at times.
Don’t really know what point I’m getting at, forgotten what I wanted to say really but I expect it’s obvious my mind is in pieces. Only good thing I can see at the moment is that the nights are drawing out which brings a bit of hope.
Sorry for the rambling post, could wright a lot more but can’t think straight to make any sense. Really wish the best for the rest of you.
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Ashfordian said:
anonymous said:
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Seems this guy has died twice this month already! Will he die next Thursday as well?You posted this on Thursday 11th Feb
anonymous said:
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What are your reasons for intentionally fearmongering? Why the multiple posts citing different days for the same person?Edited by Ashfordian on Sunday 21st February 18:57
Cheers all, really appreciate it. It’s hard not to feel like a fraud honestly as I either feel completely terrible and don’t want to post at all but then when I’m feeling ‘normal’ and do post it feels like I’m attention seeking and I hate that. I’m very aware that as crap as things seem they could be worse and some poor sods are having an even harder time. I’m very grateful that I lived in the countryside as the bustle of town life would have finished me off.
Counselling is something I’d not considered. Did various types of counselling through school but didn’t really help though that’s probably as I wasn’t doing it by choice and resented being made to go. I do think it would be helpful if I found one who I could be open with, thanks for the suggestion. This sub forum is such a great place, really helps to be able to talk things through and read how others are getting on.
Counselling is something I’d not considered. Did various types of counselling through school but didn’t really help though that’s probably as I wasn’t doing it by choice and resented being made to go. I do think it would be helpful if I found one who I could be open with, thanks for the suggestion. This sub forum is such a great place, really helps to be able to talk things through and read how others are getting on.
V1nce Fox said:
The seeming inevitability of digital passports has knocked me hard. I can’t see a place or a future for me in this world if that becomes a reality. I feel ike i belong to a past age of freedom and have no place in this world’s future. I can’t live like that.
Hopefully I can't see this happening - I think resistance plus the sheer incompetence of ANY gov IT project will can it..."World Beating..."
I'm trying not to think of stuff like that. I'm hoping once things get back to normal the craziness will subside. To insist on a vaccination to take into account local conditions is one thing, but to insist on it everywhere would I imagine create big problems.
Behind what might be a fairly small number of people unable to be vaccinated, they are also likely to be part of a family unit. If one person cannot be vaccinated and cannot travel, is that family going to go anyway and leave that individual behind? Domestically are they going to all go to a pub or restaurant and forget about the person who cannot be vaccinated? So many questions.
I'm currently on day 7 of my 14 day isolation. Starting to really feel it now with my sleeping pattern gone completely and the inability to concentrate for any length of time means me darting from one thought to the next. I try to keep myself sane by looking out the window and watching the locals raking through the commercial bins looking for scraps of food. Things I guess could be so much worse than been in this room.
I still think if this is going to be the norm for the next few years with work, I will have to change. Never have I had a job I loved so much, turn into something I dread so fast.
Behind what might be a fairly small number of people unable to be vaccinated, they are also likely to be part of a family unit. If one person cannot be vaccinated and cannot travel, is that family going to go anyway and leave that individual behind? Domestically are they going to all go to a pub or restaurant and forget about the person who cannot be vaccinated? So many questions.
I'm currently on day 7 of my 14 day isolation. Starting to really feel it now with my sleeping pattern gone completely and the inability to concentrate for any length of time means me darting from one thought to the next. I try to keep myself sane by looking out the window and watching the locals raking through the commercial bins looking for scraps of food. Things I guess could be so much worse than been in this room.
I still think if this is going to be the norm for the next few years with work, I will have to change. Never have I had a job I loved so much, turn into something I dread so fast.
I’m feeling the same that I’m increasingly feeling I don’t want to be part of the world the way things are seemingly going to be.
My boss got both barrels the other day as I’ve told him countless times I don’t want to talk about anything COVID related, nothing at all. Yet predictably that didn’t sink into his thick skull and continued to shoe horn COVID into every conversation so lost my temper in the end, he just has zero appreciation for how my mind is at the moment.
Basically told him that by the time this is done I’m going to have lost at least a year and a half of my life, more friends and relatives than I want to think, it’s been a terrible couple of years even without COVID and my mind is in the worst place it’s ever been and you keep telling me to cheer up.
The lighter evenings are the only thing that I’m drawing on for some long term hope at the moment. As for boris’s road map, it can do one. Just more bullst.
My boss got both barrels the other day as I’ve told him countless times I don’t want to talk about anything COVID related, nothing at all. Yet predictably that didn’t sink into his thick skull and continued to shoe horn COVID into every conversation so lost my temper in the end, he just has zero appreciation for how my mind is at the moment.
Basically told him that by the time this is done I’m going to have lost at least a year and a half of my life, more friends and relatives than I want to think, it’s been a terrible couple of years even without COVID and my mind is in the worst place it’s ever been and you keep telling me to cheer up.
The lighter evenings are the only thing that I’m drawing on for some long term hope at the moment. As for boris’s road map, it can do one. Just more bulls
t. Hope everyone is ok, I've read a lot of the posts here, some desperate times for many people that's for sure,
I feel the same way as a lot of the feelings expressed already, often difficult to articulate and that is frustrating in itself.
I've wrote about it on here before, but it's that spare capacity I used to have in bundles that seems to be gone, if something happens at work or home that I hadn't planned for or wasn't expecting it flattens me. I guess that's a symptom of stress?
I'm actually continuing with my OU STEM Degree and the Psychology modules are really interesting to me, so I am aiming to enrol on those when they open up, and maybe take my career (Engineering) down a different path.
Feels good just to have something, anything, to aim at to give a focus other than this continual treadmill feeling.
Best wishes to everyone.
I feel the same way as a lot of the feelings expressed already, often difficult to articulate and that is frustrating in itself.
I've wrote about it on here before, but it's that spare capacity I used to have in bundles that seems to be gone, if something happens at work or home that I hadn't planned for or wasn't expecting it flattens me. I guess that's a symptom of stress?
I'm actually continuing with my OU STEM Degree and the Psychology modules are really interesting to me, so I am aiming to enrol on those when they open up, and maybe take my career (Engineering) down a different path.
Feels good just to have something, anything, to aim at to give a focus other than this continual treadmill feeling.
Best wishes to everyone.
Hi all,
I empathise completely with those that are struggling, I've been there, and to a lesser degree I am there. I'm all too familiar with the crushing feeling of emptiness, lack of joy and muted existence we seem to be subject to right now.
But, remember this - better days are coming. I know its difficult to see how, but they are.
Finally, live your life, if that means bending guidelines or going against restrictions, for the sake of your mental health it has to be worth it.
Edit to add - Don't be a complete retard in bending restrictions, be sensible and proportionate for your situation.
I empathise completely with those that are struggling, I've been there, and to a lesser degree I am there. I'm all too familiar with the crushing feeling of emptiness, lack of joy and muted existence we seem to be subject to right now.
But, remember this - better days are coming. I know its difficult to see how, but they are.
- Weather is changing, warmer temperatures, longer days. More opportunity to get outside, exercise, walk, take in your surroundings
- Kids are back to school in 2 weeks, a welcome return to some normality and routine
- Restrictions are being lifted. Its very very easy to get suckered into the doom-mongering but this is the first time dates have really been set, for all of the bluster regarding row backs and caveats, its political suicide to do so now
- Soon we will be enjoying the pubs (either outside or inside)
Finally, live your life, if that means bending guidelines or going against restrictions, for the sake of your mental health it has to be worth it.
Edit to add - Don't be a complete retard in bending restrictions, be sensible and proportionate for your situation.
Edited by Pete102 on Wednesday 24th February 12:48
Pete102 said:
Hi all,
Exactly this. I have resisted travelling anywhere at the weekends but see pictures of people travelling to the beach for exercise.
Last sunday i cracked and went for a few hours.
Weather was just perfect and i took the view i'm outside and within a lot of space. plus i drove there solo.
Keeps me going for a while until i cant go there on a regular basis.
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