The waiting is the hardest bit
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Odd isn't it ... the human mind. My missus has a biopsy tomorrow sometime. Poor lass is pretty poorly and at the moment and CT, MRI scans and xrays have drawn a complete blank as to why.
Odd how you sit sometimes, not wanting to do anything at all, but at the same time want to do so much. Odder still how even when you know the outcome is more than likely to be positive, the mind drifts to the darkest of dark places. I was thinking a while earlier, when I was waiting for my BC results, the waiting wasn't that bad, but this is 100 times worse.
Odd how you sit sometimes, not wanting to do anything at all, but at the same time want to do so much. Odder still how even when you know the outcome is more than likely to be positive, the mind drifts to the darkest of dark places. I was thinking a while earlier, when I was waiting for my BC results, the waiting wasn't that bad, but this is 100 times worse.
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OP - Hope everything turns out well.Fact is you pay a lot of money for veterinary blood tests so it gets done quickly. In all likelihood the blood tests will be run through the machines the same day you give the blood sample (for the most common tests)...it's all the faffing about with computer systems that takes the time.
Your mind is the cruelest 'organ' in the body - it does horrible things to you and however much you try to distract it, it persists in coming back to where it was. I've tried lots of things, none are great at keeping it from where it wants to go but one of the best I've found is to visualise a road traffic STOP sign - it can bring you to with a bit of a jerk but for me it's one of the most effective ways of stopping the descent into black holes.
Best of luck and thoughts are with you
Best of luck and thoughts are with you
Well it's early in the morning and after a few hours of sleep, here's me banging away on the internet to a world full of strangers because I can;t sleep more than a handful of hours. So much seems daunting and so much seems unanswerable. Wednesday seems to be the day for us, but already we are aware enough to know between the lines that it's not looking great. Every day, step by step, but what ever happens I will be with her every day for the rest of my life.
Funny, life turns on a sixpence. So much potential, so much to do, so much good stuff going on, so many plans and now it comes to a life of waiting for the one thing in my life, the most important thing of all to have the right outcome.
Forgive the early morning ramblings, life at this moment has taken on a preciousness that this time last week spanned decades.
edit: does anyone know if you can get married at short notice?
Funny, life turns on a sixpence. So much potential, so much to do, so much good stuff going on, so many plans and now it comes to a life of waiting for the one thing in my life, the most important thing of all to have the right outcome.
Forgive the early morning ramblings, life at this moment has taken on a preciousness that this time last week spanned decades.
edit: does anyone know if you can get married at short notice?
Edited by drivin_me_nuts on Friday 11th June 07:18
good news, she comes home today - had me in tears on the phone to her. Nothing more to be said or done until the big meet on Wednesday. So much to sort out, so much to say and do. Life turns on a sixpence. Today I feel on top of the world like nothiing is wrong - please let every day be like today.
Thanks for all your kind words, it means so very much, it really does.
Thanks for all your kind words, it means so very much, it really does.
drivin_me_nuts said:
good news, she comes home today - had me in tears on the phone to her. Nothing more to be said or done until the big meet on Wednesday. So much to sort out, so much to say and do. Life turns on a sixpence. Today I feel on top of the world like nothiing is wrong - please let every day be like today.
Thanks for all your kind words, it means so very much, it really does.
Hang in there....if you need to vent, i'll keep an eye out for messages.Thanks for all your kind words, it means so very much, it really does.
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