Depression - Rock Bottom
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1st post has disappeared so don't know the details but I suffer with depression and went to the really, really dark places and my advice is seek help as soon as possible.
Part of the probleem is that you clam up and don't talk about your problems. I did just this.
Talking helps enormously.
Part of the probleem is that you clam up and don't talk about your problems. I did just this.
Talking helps enormously.
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R400PM said:
I am 27 and have been suffering from depression for the worst part of six months now. It seems that I cannot get out of this massive rut that I am in. I have withdrawn from life pretty much altogether (other than work) and I can't seem to pick myself up when previously I have been very outgoing and in amongst everything.
I have been put on anti-depressants (now for four weeks) and it seems I am relying on them. On one hand they don't seem to make any difference, yet I forgot to take one yesterday morning and by 3pm I was reduced to a wreck. I have lost two and a half stone in eight weeks. I'm never hungry (I've not eaten in four days) and when people try to give me food I am just sick. I have been drinking water to keep me going. I can hardly sleep which means I am tired all the time.
I had an indescribable urge two days ago to run in front of a lorry and the thought of ending all this has become more and apparent in recent days. I am literally at rock bottom and never thought I would ever come asking the PH massive to help but I don't know what else to do. I have tried to speak to family and friends but it seems I am screaming at the top of my voice yet no one is listening.
I have been repeatedly to my doctor but she just passes it off as a 'bad patch' and writes out the prescription and sends me on my way. I've tried telling her it's worse than just a 'bad patch' but she's having none of it.
I'm literally at rock bottom... Please help?!?
I was in a similar postion a few years back to cut a long story short I lost basically everything including my home so I know how hard things can get.I have been put on anti-depressants (now for four weeks) and it seems I am relying on them. On one hand they don't seem to make any difference, yet I forgot to take one yesterday morning and by 3pm I was reduced to a wreck. I have lost two and a half stone in eight weeks. I'm never hungry (I've not eaten in four days) and when people try to give me food I am just sick. I have been drinking water to keep me going. I can hardly sleep which means I am tired all the time.
I had an indescribable urge two days ago to run in front of a lorry and the thought of ending all this has become more and apparent in recent days. I am literally at rock bottom and never thought I would ever come asking the PH massive to help but I don't know what else to do. I have tried to speak to family and friends but it seems I am screaming at the top of my voice yet no one is listening.
I have been repeatedly to my doctor but she just passes it off as a 'bad patch' and writes out the prescription and sends me on my way. I've tried telling her it's worse than just a 'bad patch' but she's having none of it.
I'm literally at rock bottom... Please help?!?
But there is light at the end of the tunnel things will and do get better you just have to give it time.
Time is a great healer and the best healer just dont expect miracles over night these things take a while to happen.
Best advice I can give is take each day as it comes and dont expect to much to soon.
If you get through a tough day then great !! just think its another daydone and another to tackle tommorrow.
keep smiling and chin up mucker
I think you need to get a family member/ friend, someone who is close to you to understand what you are going through.
Someone who can be your rock, turn your attention to and occupy your mind. I know me writing it out it looks easy and I know it's not, and it's not the only answer but I believe it will help.
Someone who can be your rock, turn your attention to and occupy your mind. I know me writing it out it looks easy and I know it's not, and it's not the only answer but I believe it will help.
Exactly what Paddy said. Samaritans: 08457 90 90 90
There is a wealth of support out there, so long as you reach out and ask for it. You are not alone in feeling like this, especially at this time of year.
It's a positive that you are still managing to work.
Have you mentioned your suicidal thoughts to your GP or played them down/not mentioned them through some sense of shame/fear?
I'd also suggest mentioning when you do see her next about changing your ADs, missing one pill in four weeks should not send you that quickly into a massive downswing. I'll guess at fluoxetine, but citalopram is also common as a first prescription.
Both take a while to build up in your system and start working (around 2 weeks) and don't cease to work instantly if you miss a single one, although a small blip in mood can occur a day or so later.
To clarify, I'm not a doctor, but have lived with clinical depression both in myself my whole adult life and among my immediate family for all of it.
Please talk to the Samaritans, make an emergency appointment with your GP who should ask you to complete a 1-5 scale type questionnaire and ideally refer you to the practice counsellor as a starting point. Referral to a psychiatrist or clinical psychologist for specialist treatment will stem from that.
You should also be able to contact your local CMHT (Community Mental Health Team) directly and they will liaise with your GP and any specialists as necessary. Once you are under their wing so to speak, they will provide you with a 24 hour crisis line in case of emergencies such as you describe above. Call them, it's what they and the Samaritans are there for.
I hope you get the help you need and good luck. Sorry to read you're having a rough time of things OP, but it can and does get better. Take that from someone who has been where you are and got out the other side, more than once and helped others through it.
There is a wealth of support out there, so long as you reach out and ask for it. You are not alone in feeling like this, especially at this time of year.
It's a positive that you are still managing to work.
Have you mentioned your suicidal thoughts to your GP or played them down/not mentioned them through some sense of shame/fear?
I'd also suggest mentioning when you do see her next about changing your ADs, missing one pill in four weeks should not send you that quickly into a massive downswing. I'll guess at fluoxetine, but citalopram is also common as a first prescription.
Both take a while to build up in your system and start working (around 2 weeks) and don't cease to work instantly if you miss a single one, although a small blip in mood can occur a day or so later.
To clarify, I'm not a doctor, but have lived with clinical depression both in myself my whole adult life and among my immediate family for all of it.
Please talk to the Samaritans, make an emergency appointment with your GP who should ask you to complete a 1-5 scale type questionnaire and ideally refer you to the practice counsellor as a starting point. Referral to a psychiatrist or clinical psychologist for specialist treatment will stem from that.
You should also be able to contact your local CMHT (Community Mental Health Team) directly and they will liaise with your GP and any specialists as necessary. Once you are under their wing so to speak, they will provide you with a 24 hour crisis line in case of emergencies such as you describe above. Call them, it's what they and the Samaritans are there for.
I hope you get the help you need and good luck. Sorry to read you're having a rough time of things OP, but it can and does get better. Take that from someone who has been where you are and got out the other side, more than once and helped others through it.
Having now read the op I would say that one of the things you need to do is get another GP.
Mine was awesome when I was at rock bottom and if yours isn't helping, try to get one that does.
Buy a book called "Living with the black dog". It's designed to help the partners of people with depression, but it helped me a great deal because reading it makes you realise that your symptoms aren't unique to you and that you are not alone in this.
Anti depressants take a few weeks to kick in properly. I see them as taking the sharp edges off of life so stick with them and they should help.
Mine was awesome when I was at rock bottom and if yours isn't helping, try to get one that does.
Buy a book called "Living with the black dog". It's designed to help the partners of people with depression, but it helped me a great deal because reading it makes you realise that your symptoms aren't unique to you and that you are not alone in this.
Anti depressants take a few weeks to kick in properly. I see them as taking the sharp edges off of life so stick with them and they should help.
Indeed - any GP that fobs you off immediately with antidepressants isn't doing their job properly. I've never been to the GP with depression (although I really, really should have) and I can only imagine the effort and courage it took to get there in the first place, so well done for that.
I know exactly jack-sh*t about your case, but having had SAD depression for the last 10 years (boxed in office), it finally came to a head last year when I lost my job. Got a new one, in an office with windows. 8 months on and I feel amazing considering the time of year. Get help, work it out, get it sorted. All the very best wishes to you in getting fixed. There is a cure, somewhere!
toggs said:
I was in a similar postion a few years back to cut a long story short I lost basically everything including my home so I know how hard things can get.
But there is light at the end of the tunnel things will and do get better you just have to give it time.
Time is a great healer and the best healer just dont expect miracles over night these things take a while to happen.
Best advice I can give is take each day as it comes and dont expect to much to soon.
If you get through a tough day then great !! just think its another daydone and another to tackle tommorrow.
keep smiling and chin up mucker
Seeing as the OP decided to delete his original post, it would be a nice thing for you to do so as well. But there is light at the end of the tunnel things will and do get better you just have to give it time.
Time is a great healer and the best healer just dont expect miracles over night these things take a while to happen.
Best advice I can give is take each day as it comes and dont expect to much to soon.
If you get through a tough day then great !! just think its another daydone and another to tackle tommorrow.
keep smiling and chin up mucker
OP mate, depression is like a tunnel, you need to keep going till you can see the light. But when you out, you forget why it seemed so bad in there.
best of luck
You're in a very dark patch right now but I hope you realise many have been there before you and have come out on the right side.
There is a brighter side, anti-depressants don't always help you get there although I know they are a crutch. I hope you can get the help you need, and support from family/friends/anyone tbh.
Wishing you all the best.
There is a brighter side, anti-depressants don't always help you get there although I know they are a crutch. I hope you can get the help you need, and support from family/friends/anyone tbh.
Wishing you all the best.
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