Is this normal??

[metro lover]

I'll set a date but I know it will just get put back, lately I keep trying to be a better person by doing good deeds (you wouldnt believe the things I've done) but I always know I'll go straight back to the chalk and I just wish the people I care about showed me the same compassion

[goldblum]

You must put your self pity aside and decide that on that date your situation will change.You doing good deeds for others will make no difference whatsoever I'm afraid.Make a decision on a date and focus all your positive thoughts on it.

[metro lover]

Nothing ever good ever comes from putting myself first though, if I don't go to the pub and drive the old boys home or go to mass on a Sunday morning I just fk up no matter how good my intentions are

[mattnunn]

Get to a meeting, you need to be around people with real experience and expertise not a motoring forum.

http://www.alcoholics-anonymous.org.uk