Anyone else getting tired of it all?
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Jacked in my job here, finish in a little over two weeks.
The relentless WFH in a small office with few breaks and a busy workload, with no respite for holidays, and dwindling motivation was simply doing my tits in. I'm sure many of you are in the same predicament.
Will be taking at least a few months out to ride my bike and work on cars, then will see what's what.
The relentless WFH in a small office with few breaks and a busy workload, with no respite for holidays, and dwindling motivation was simply doing my tits in. I'm sure many of you are in the same predicament.
Will be taking at least a few months out to ride my bike and work on cars, then will see what's what.
Really feeling the tone of some of these posts. Sorry you're all struggling.
Was pretty resilient last year with things to aim towards - Summer, Xmas, the thought of things getting back to 'normal'. I lost a relative this January, and the news of things not being back to normal until mid way through the year seems to have really put things into a spiral for me, and with absolutely no activities booked, planned or in sight it feels like a real treadmill.
Barely leaving the house for anything, sleeping later and later, just run out of any steam.
I'm really committed to work, pulling 12-14h working days most days, but can't honestly say I'm doing good, or productive work. Just busy work and a lot of obligations and calls and the brain is playing tricks on me, imposter syndrome, second guessing everything. Working from home has just turned my home into a permanent workplace in my mind.
I've had enough. And I don't even feel as though I can unwind, seem to have even 'lost' that ability.
Even finding the Sunday fear even worse than usual and creeps in earlier and earlier - spend the weekend worrying about things I don't have the mental agility to manage right now.
Was pretty resilient last year with things to aim towards - Summer, Xmas, the thought of things getting back to 'normal'. I lost a relative this January, and the news of things not being back to normal until mid way through the year seems to have really put things into a spiral for me, and with absolutely no activities booked, planned or in sight it feels like a real treadmill.
Barely leaving the house for anything, sleeping later and later, just run out of any steam.
I'm really committed to work, pulling 12-14h working days most days, but can't honestly say I'm doing good, or productive work. Just busy work and a lot of obligations and calls and the brain is playing tricks on me, imposter syndrome, second guessing everything. Working from home has just turned my home into a permanent workplace in my mind.
I've had enough. And I don't even feel as though I can unwind, seem to have even 'lost' that ability.
Even finding the Sunday fear even worse than usual and creeps in earlier and earlier - spend the weekend worrying about things I don't have the mental agility to manage right now.
Tonight I decided to take the very long way home, via some interesting country roads, with the roof down and some good music on - like what we all used to do when we were young.
'Interesting' levels of grip on winter tyres and a sheen of moisture on the road made for some good concentration.
There were a remarkable number of people out walking, but then I guess there's not much else to do...
Anyway, the point is that I do feel much better for going for a blast and just forgetting for half an hour that the world is going to hell in a handcart pushed by our self-serving Chief Muppets. Enjoy the countryside, enjoy controlling your own destiny, enjoy interacting with other people out and about, enjoy the opportunity to crank the music up, enjoy the challenge of driving properly...
Perhaps it's time for some PH morning / evening runs out with other local PHers
'Interesting' levels of grip on winter tyres and a sheen of moisture on the road made for some good concentration.
There were a remarkable number of people out walking, but then I guess there's not much else to do...
Anyway, the point is that I do feel much better for going for a blast and just forgetting for half an hour that the world is going to hell in a handcart pushed by our self-serving Chief Muppets. Enjoy the countryside, enjoy controlling your own destiny, enjoy interacting with other people out and about, enjoy the opportunity to crank the music up, enjoy the challenge of driving properly...
Perhaps it's time for some PH morning / evening runs out with other local PHers
Turn7 said:
Pete102 said:
pidsy said:
I hope so. My sleep pattern has been destroyed.
I look horrendous atm. My mind races for no reason at all when I go to bed. I’m getting 4-5 hours a night at the moment.
My mood can’t drop much lower. The emptiness is still firmly in place and I feel constantly “on the edge” of losing emotional control.
This thread has helped hugely. It’s positive to know that others feel the same.
Listen to an audiobook, focus on the words and listening to them intently. Without fail it puts me out within 20 minutes, and I'm a chronic overthinker!I look horrendous atm. My mind races for no reason at all when I go to bed. I’m getting 4-5 hours a night at the moment.
My mood can’t drop much lower. The emptiness is still firmly in place and I feel constantly “on the edge” of losing emotional control.
This thread has helped hugely. It’s positive to know that others feel the same.
Stuff like this is why I use PH.
RSTurboPaul said:
The problem I have is the creeping apparent inevitability of 'vaccine passports' and a society where 'guilty until proven innocent' means those of us not wishing to become dependent on twice-a-year injections of cocktails of genetic engineering and nano-engineered carrier materials (in order to be 'allowed' to have contact with other people) will be made pariahs and unable to have any quality of life.
I don't want any of my family to end up in the situation where they can't work, can't go to school, can't access healthcare, or can't even walk down the street without being challenged to prove they are 'allowed' to not wear a mask in the open air, yet it seems the UK (and many other countries) has a Government that is going to push this through with no public vote on it and with total disregard to the up-ending and destruction of historically hard-won freedoms.
I feel like I'm looking at the last days of Rome, meanwhile the crazed facebook lockdown fetishists rage on with flaming torches against people 'breaking the rulez', totally oblivious to the coming world they are either failing to perceive or are actually supporting for reasons that remain elusive to anyone with the power of thought.
The problem, therefore, grows ever nearer, like a laser inching closer to Mr Bond's groin, with escape seemingly impossible, and with calls for people standing watching to at least consider looking at the switch on the control panel marked 'actual WEF Great Reset is happening' being shouted down as 'conspiracy theorist nutjob!!'
I think what the pandemic has shown is the amount of "crazy" we have amongst us, there is hyperbole to try and illustrate a point and then there is just plain anti vax/great reset crazy posts like yours.I don't want any of my family to end up in the situation where they can't work, can't go to school, can't access healthcare, or can't even walk down the street without being challenged to prove they are 'allowed' to not wear a mask in the open air, yet it seems the UK (and many other countries) has a Government that is going to push this through with no public vote on it and with total disregard to the up-ending and destruction of historically hard-won freedoms.
I feel like I'm looking at the last days of Rome, meanwhile the crazed facebook lockdown fetishists rage on with flaming torches against people 'breaking the rulez', totally oblivious to the coming world they are either failing to perceive or are actually supporting for reasons that remain elusive to anyone with the power of thought.
The problem, therefore, grows ever nearer, like a laser inching closer to Mr Bond's groin, with escape seemingly impossible, and with calls for people standing watching to at least consider looking at the switch on the control panel marked 'actual WEF Great Reset is happening' being shouted down as 'conspiracy theorist nutjob!!'
Edited by RSTurboPaul on Friday 19th February 00:15
If you post conspiracy theories you will get called a nut job, the government needs us all back at work and spending money and paying taxes within a fully open economy ASAP, they're not winning from the current situation please stop spreading this nonsense.
Wills2 said:
RSTurboPaul said:
The problem I have is the creeping apparent inevitability of 'vaccine passports' and a society where 'guilty until proven innocent' means those of us not wishing to become dependent on twice-a-year injections of cocktails of genetic engineering and nano-engineered carrier materials (in order to be 'allowed' to have contact with other people) will be made pariahs and unable to have any quality of life.
I don't want any of my family to end up in the situation where they can't work, can't go to school, can't access healthcare, or can't even walk down the street without being challenged to prove they are 'allowed' to not wear a mask in the open air, yet it seems the UK (and many other countries) has a Government that is going to push this through with no public vote on it and with total disregard to the up-ending and destruction of historically hard-won freedoms.
I feel like I'm looking at the last days of Rome, meanwhile the crazed facebook lockdown fetishists rage on with flaming torches against people 'breaking the rulez', totally oblivious to the coming world they are either failing to perceive or are actually supporting for reasons that remain elusive to anyone with the power of thought.
The problem, therefore, grows ever nearer, like a laser inching closer to Mr Bond's groin, with escape seemingly impossible, and with calls for people standing watching to at least consider looking at the switch on the control panel marked 'actual WEF Great Reset is happening' being shouted down as 'conspiracy theorist nutjob!!'
I think what the pandemic has shown is the amount of "crazy" we have amongst us, there is hyperbole to try and illustrate a point and then there is just plain anti vax/great reset crazy posts like yours.I don't want any of my family to end up in the situation where they can't work, can't go to school, can't access healthcare, or can't even walk down the street without being challenged to prove they are 'allowed' to not wear a mask in the open air, yet it seems the UK (and many other countries) has a Government that is going to push this through with no public vote on it and with total disregard to the up-ending and destruction of historically hard-won freedoms.
I feel like I'm looking at the last days of Rome, meanwhile the crazed facebook lockdown fetishists rage on with flaming torches against people 'breaking the rulez', totally oblivious to the coming world they are either failing to perceive or are actually supporting for reasons that remain elusive to anyone with the power of thought.
The problem, therefore, grows ever nearer, like a laser inching closer to Mr Bond's groin, with escape seemingly impossible, and with calls for people standing watching to at least consider looking at the switch on the control panel marked 'actual WEF Great Reset is happening' being shouted down as 'conspiracy theorist nutjob!!'
Edited by RSTurboPaul on Friday 19th February 00:15
If you post conspiracy theories you will get called a nut job, the government needs us all back at work and spending money and paying taxes within a fully open economy ASAP, they're not winning from the current situation please stop spreading this nonsense.
Edited by RSTurboPaul on Friday 19th February 20:41
My Mum was in a residential home.
I saw her on 11 March 2020 then visits were (sensibly) cancelled.
My sister and I managed to see her again in late August and early September then visits were stopped.
Mum died on 3 November 2020 and none of us could get there in time.
We had the funeral service on 24 November subject to limited numbers, masks, and no singing - I've had more than enough.
I saw her on 11 March 2020 then visits were (sensibly) cancelled.
My sister and I managed to see her again in late August and early September then visits were stopped.
Mum died on 3 November 2020 and none of us could get there in time.
We had the funeral service on 24 November subject to limited numbers, masks, and no singing - I've had more than enough.
Mr Tidy said:
My Mum was in a residential home.
I saw her on 11 March 2020 then visits were (sensibly) cancelled.
My sister and I managed to see her again in late August and early September then visits were stopped.
Mum died on 3 November 2020 and none of us could get there in time.
We had the funeral service on 24 November subject to limited numbers, masks, and no singing - I've had more than enough.
Horrific I saw her on 11 March 2020 then visits were (sensibly) cancelled.
My sister and I managed to see her again in late August and early September then visits were stopped.
Mum died on 3 November 2020 and none of us could get there in time.
We had the funeral service on 24 November subject to limited numbers, masks, and no singing - I've had more than enough.
Mr Tidy said:
My Mum was in a residential home.
I saw her on 11 March 2020 then visits were (sensibly) cancelled.
My sister and I managed to see her again in late August and early September then visits were stopped.
Mum died on 3 November 2020 and none of us could get there in time.
We had the funeral service on 24 November subject to limited numbers, masks, and no singing - I've had more than enough.
Sorry to learn that. My dad is in a care home. I haven’t seen him in a year. I worry about him. We’ve had a few lockdown funerals and it was interesting to see who was on the guest list. Makes you wonder. If you died and could only invite select people who would they be. I hope you and your family find strength in each other to get through this. I saw her on 11 March 2020 then visits were (sensibly) cancelled.
My sister and I managed to see her again in late August and early September then visits were stopped.
Mum died on 3 November 2020 and none of us could get there in time.
We had the funeral service on 24 November subject to limited numbers, masks, and no singing - I've had more than enough.
I noticed today loads of cars and bikes out and about.
Lockdown isn’t happening anymore most have thrown the towel in.
In a way I can’t blame them as the side effects are far reaching but then spreading the virus is the danger.
I maintain that this has made me value the time I have left on this earth very differently.
Early 50’s and two more years I’m out of city working and packing it all in.
If I have to live on beans and toast so be it
Lockdown isn’t happening anymore most have thrown the towel in.
In a way I can’t blame them as the side effects are far reaching but then spreading the virus is the danger.
I maintain that this has made me value the time I have left on this earth very differently.
Early 50’s and two more years I’m out of city working and packing it all in.
If I have to live on beans and toast so be it
anonymous said:
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Seems this guy has died twice this month already! Will he die next Thursday as well?You posted this on Thursday 11th Feb
anonymous said:
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What are your reasons for intentionally fearmongering? Why the multiple posts citing different days for the same person?Edited by Ashfordian on Sunday 21st February 18:57
Turn7 said:
anonymous said:
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WTF where you doing on MY manor in a lockdown ? Agreed, tho, lots of folks out, and a fair few toys out as well.......
The canal tow path was like Oxford street at Christmas.
There were people having picnics and letting their kids build sand castles in the bunkers on the golf course at the Grove.
anonymous said:
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Nobody said isnt real, it just isn’t that dangerous. I’m not fit and healthy in the slightest and had it without realising.Like most others i know, have has worse colds frankly.
Are you going to post on here next time you have norovirus or the flu telling us how dangerous are? In fairness at least you would have more of a point in that instance...
Not commented in a while, wanted too but didn’t, sure I’m not the only one. Can’t express how sorry I am for some of us who are having a really s
t time of it.
Not sure how to start exactly, Family is having a crap time of it (putting it mildly) and not seeing any mates, no car events or meets, no coping devices basically. Huge feeling of having completely given up and a weird relief that I’ve accepted I just don’t care what happens anymore.
Went out for a long walk today to some places I used to take my dog, nice quiet areas and took a catapult with me (lifelong hobby) so some idle stump shooting while I was out. Nice to get out in the fresh air and did feel better for it, though that quickly returns to a feeling of nothingness as a lot of us seem to be experiencing.
I was dreading the weekend on Friday as I end up doing nothing of any meaning and generally during these times prefer work as it keeps me in routine and feels like I’m accomplishing something (I make stuff). Now the predictably empty weekend is basically over I’m dreading facing work tomorrow. It may be me as I’m no doubt pretty shot mentally but my boss seems to be looking for disagreements at the moment. This causes huge strain as I’m very quiet in person and like to keep to myself and don’t like any kind of confrontation or disagreement (nasty temper/streak in me so I just don’t go there). I’m the only employee and I work with my boss in the same room (workshop) so there’s no escape. No point explaining to him the issues I’m having as it won’t sink in (tried before). Sad as I love my job and it means a lot to me but there’s been a few times I’ve been ready to give it up as I just can’t cope with the unnecessary tension.
Cried my eyes out after work on Friday and just didn’t want to carry on with life. I can’t face opening up and explaining to someone how I’m really feeling, everyone seems to think I’m very strong mentally and stuff doesn’t get to me so don’t ask how I’m doing. Self inflicted really as I don’t open up or let on when I’m having problems and am pretty to the point normally.
Only reason I haven’t seen the GP yet is I don’t like the thought of being labelled as having ‘issues’. Really stupid as it’s obvious I’m not coping at times.
Don’t really know what point I’m getting at, forgotten what I wanted to say really but I expect it’s obvious my mind is in pieces. Only good thing I can see at the moment is that the nights are drawing out which brings a bit of hope.
Sorry for the rambling post, could wright a lot more but can’t think straight to make any sense. Really wish the best for the rest of you.
t time of it. Not sure how to start exactly, Family is having a crap time of it (putting it mildly) and not seeing any mates, no car events or meets, no coping devices basically. Huge feeling of having completely given up and a weird relief that I’ve accepted I just don’t care what happens anymore.
Went out for a long walk today to some places I used to take my dog, nice quiet areas and took a catapult with me (lifelong hobby) so some idle stump shooting while I was out. Nice to get out in the fresh air and did feel better for it, though that quickly returns to a feeling of nothingness as a lot of us seem to be experiencing.
I was dreading the weekend on Friday as I end up doing nothing of any meaning and generally during these times prefer work as it keeps me in routine and feels like I’m accomplishing something (I make stuff). Now the predictably empty weekend is basically over I’m dreading facing work tomorrow. It may be me as I’m no doubt pretty shot mentally but my boss seems to be looking for disagreements at the moment. This causes huge strain as I’m very quiet in person and like to keep to myself and don’t like any kind of confrontation or disagreement (nasty temper/streak in me so I just don’t go there). I’m the only employee and I work with my boss in the same room (workshop) so there’s no escape. No point explaining to him the issues I’m having as it won’t sink in (tried before). Sad as I love my job and it means a lot to me but there’s been a few times I’ve been ready to give it up as I just can’t cope with the unnecessary tension.
Cried my eyes out after work on Friday and just didn’t want to carry on with life. I can’t face opening up and explaining to someone how I’m really feeling, everyone seems to think I’m very strong mentally and stuff doesn’t get to me so don’t ask how I’m doing. Self inflicted really as I don’t open up or let on when I’m having problems and am pretty to the point normally.
Only reason I haven’t seen the GP yet is I don’t like the thought of being labelled as having ‘issues’. Really stupid as it’s obvious I’m not coping at times.
Don’t really know what point I’m getting at, forgotten what I wanted to say really but I expect it’s obvious my mind is in pieces. Only good thing I can see at the moment is that the nights are drawing out which brings a bit of hope.
Sorry for the rambling post, could wright a lot more but can’t think straight to make any sense. Really wish the best for the rest of you.
Ashfordian said:
anonymous said:
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Seems this guy has died twice this month already! Will he die next Thursday as well?You posted this on Thursday 11th Feb
anonymous said:
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What are your reasons for intentionally fearmongering? Why the multiple posts citing different days for the same person?Edited by Ashfordian on Sunday 21st February 18:57
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