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I don't usually get too emotional on here, and I know I made a recent post about friendships. I just feel the need to post something. I don't expect replies, though I am sure I will get some and I am sure some will be mocking, but C'est la vie.
My dad passed away 3 months ago. This in itself hurt me more than I expected. I know they say time is a healer but it hasn't helped. I know it's early days still and I cope, get on with life etc, but it's always there, the knowing.
I get married on Friday, he was supposed to be there. He never got to see any of his kids get married and I know that he was looking forward to it immensely. I am looking forward to it but dreading it also, as I know I am going to miss him on the day. As the date gets closer I feel myself getting more upset about the fact. The only solace I get is that he knew I was getting married.
I miss him every day, even though I didn't get to see him as much after moving away, but he was only ever on the end of the phone and he always looked forward to hearing from me or seeing me. I just hope that I can do him proud on Friday and afterwards.
Sorry, bit rambly, not enough swearing. 1/10.
My dad passed away 3 months ago. This in itself hurt me more than I expected. I know they say time is a healer but it hasn't helped. I know it's early days still and I cope, get on with life etc, but it's always there, the knowing.
I get married on Friday, he was supposed to be there. He never got to see any of his kids get married and I know that he was looking forward to it immensely. I am looking forward to it but dreading it also, as I know I am going to miss him on the day. As the date gets closer I feel myself getting more upset about the fact. The only solace I get is that he knew I was getting married.
I miss him every day, even though I didn't get to see him as much after moving away, but he was only ever on the end of the phone and he always looked forward to hearing from me or seeing me. I just hope that I can do him proud on Friday and afterwards.
Sorry, bit rambly, not enough swearing. 1/10.
thanks everyone for your replies. I will reply properly time allowing, but I have appreciated every reply. Thank you also for the good wishes.
Ps, my fiancee is well aware of my feelings regarding Friday and my dad and has been nothing but supportive of me which just reaffirms why I am marrying her.
Ps, my fiancee is well aware of my feelings regarding Friday and my dad and has been nothing but supportive of me which just reaffirms why I am marrying her.
Well I got married yesterday. It was a very happy day and I am sure that my dad was looking down.
I had a few moments during the day. My best man performed a toast to my dad during his speech and at the end of the night my brother, best man and I had a slug of whisky in memory of my dad while stood in front of his photo.
Today has been different. I've felt quite upset at times knowing what he missed yesterday, all while in a dusty room. I am both happy and sad today.
I had a few moments during the day. My best man performed a toast to my dad during his speech and at the end of the night my brother, best man and I had a slug of whisky in memory of my dad while stood in front of his photo.
Today has been different. I've felt quite upset at times knowing what he missed yesterday, all while in a dusty room. I am both happy and sad today.
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